A LETTER FOR JEREMY

A letter for Jeremy..

Dear Jeremy,

It’s been more than a year since we met, and it was one of the happiest day of my life. That day.. I decided to open up my heart again
That day I decided to trust and believe in love again, and you were the reason for that. I feel secured when I’m with you like I always tell you. The sound of your laughter seems addicting to hear. It’s funny how I look forward in smelling the scent of your perfume or feeling the touch of your warm hand into mine. Just seeing your message gives me a feeling of euphoria. I became excited to wake up each day knowing somebody out there loves me and is willing to travel the distance to be with me. You became my new inspiration in achieving my dreams. Actually..you became one of my dreams.
As I was writing this letter, tears come rushing down my face for those things that made me happy before.. are the things I miss about you now. The excitement became anxiety that you might just leave me one day. The joy became anger and disappointment for our behavior. I can’t even recognize us anymore. How sad it is to think that you are slowly fading away. How tragic it would be if you and I will part ways. I don’t want you to be just another wrong decision in my life. I don’t want you to be just somebody that I knew. I don’t want to see you go someday. So please tell me how we can work this out. How do we bring back the old flame back? How do we awaken our love again? Shall I change? Should I be more like somebody else? Should I be more sweeter and show more effort? Please tell me you will still be by my side no matter how hard it would be. That together we will figure it out. I wish you can tell me you are scared of loosing me too. That you will hold on and will never let go of me.  Because I don’t want us to be, just another unfortunate love story.