I failed an entry-level employment examination, twice this year. I started to question myself, what happened to my old self? What happened to the person that always strives hard to achieve his goals? What happened to the person that does not give up no matter how perilous and dangerous it takes? What happened to the person that never loses hope? What happened to me? Am I that embarrassed to accept the fact that I failed? Embarrassed to such exams that anyone whom passed always says that it’s quite an easy one? Embarrassed by my friends and family that I failed, confidently saying that I could bring home the bacon?

Again, I’m losing. Drowning. Frowning at my own failures.


I wish this was all just a dream.