I still remember the first day we met,
I still remember our first conversation, our shared stories,
I still remember the first day you affirmed me,
I remember the first day you stared at me while singing in an event,
I remember our first photo together with our best smiles, like we knew each other for a long time,
But for me, these were nothing magical.
Each day of knowing you is just like a movie with a typical plot, nothing special, nothing to look forward to,
Like transcendent feelings.
But a year ago a twist happened, on one sunny day in a green grass field,
While others were walking, running, playing and chatting, I saw you, like no one was there, just you and me, like one of my favorite scenes in a movie ,
And I love that every time I walk through the halls and you were there on the other side, you would walk towards me to say “Hi.”
Up until that day, I found myself staring at the night sky, looking at the stars,
I saw you as one of them, a man full of wisdom, smart, pedant, a nobleman whom I could only admire from afar, hoping someday that you will shine for me, praying to God and hoping that it’s you.
But as a woman there is nothing I can do but wait or might as well let go of the feelings that are not meant to be.
The funny thing about it is sometimes I wish I could end this with the lyrics from one of my favorite Taylor Swift songs,
“Please don’t fall in love with someone else.”
But I prefer to end this by telling you that I pray I could tell all of these to you, and that I like you and that you are special to me.
✍ Claydine Llante