To the person who I admire,
I played your voice messages last night before going to sleep, and as always, I found myself laughing and smiling as I listened to them. I will always be grateful for your prayers. I have to be honest that in the three days of not being able to talk to you feels like a lifetime already. I am tempted to send you a message and to honestly tell you how I feel. I do honestly really deeply like you very much. This would be an understatement. But I know it would be selfish of me to keep you around in my life, knowing that it is not yet the season of our lives. I think about our future, and the possibility of me not being the right person for you is still great. I want to honor your future spouse–whether it’d be me or someone else–by not taking away special moments that are only meant for your Kingdom Partner. But more than anything else, I am convicted that you can never take the place of my Savior, and neither can I. I know we did the right thing when we chose to clarify our friendship, and I will always admire you for that.
I pray that we will both grow deeper in our knowledge, love, and affection for Christ as we choose to wait on the Lord in our singleness. May He be the One to write our love stories. I know and believe in my heart that Christ knows what is best for you and me, and that’s where I put my confidence. I will be praying and cheering for you silently for now. I let you go from my heart and let God hold you instead. Take care always.
Love,
Clea
