Someone asked me, which one would you choose now? Meeting “the person” late, early or never?
She told me, “I bet it would be ‘never’ so you’ll not experience the pain you have right now”.
Removing all the “what ifs”, I said No. I’ll choose to meet him earlier if I have a chance. Why? Because we were still young then. There will be more time for us, only us, to be together. Lesser pressure, just chill and enjoy each other’s company. 2 years maybe? 3, 4 or 5…I bet those times would be filled with great memories. It might be awesome as how I can picture it in my head. Travelling together with a certain budget, trying out things for the first time. Going with the flow of life. Meeting other people and hearing their own stories, but in the end of the day, we’ll still talk and hear each other’s point of views and share what we have learned and realized. Going out with other people/friends but still we’ll be contented of having just the two of us. More late night conversation of anything under the moon. More movies to watch under the blanket. More petty arguments. More time to get to know him more. On what makes him pissed off, what makes him frustrated, what makes his bad day and what are the antidotes for those.
I used to plan my life, you know that. But with him, he makes me live the day and seize the moment. Knowing what we have is temporary, makes me value each moment that I’m with him. It makes me see even the simplest thing that makes him smile, as there’s no assurance that I’ll be able to see that the next day.
If only I could meet him when his heart and ego weren’t broken several times. When his trust wasn’t damaged.
Unlike now, he’s extremely pressured by his family and we’re only talking about “months” before his engagement. I’m also in the point of my life wherein I want my next to be the last. I learned a lot for the past 2 1/2 years of being single. I enjoyed my time, travelling, doing things for myself and my family. I know to myself that I’m willing to do everything for my next relationship as I prayed for it. Nevertheless, I will never regret the evening I met him and the rest will be history. First quarter of my 2019 might not be as great as it feels right now if not because of him. 
