I never knew that loving someone so much could kill me like literally.

Yes, masakit maiwan ng mahal mo, sobrang sakit. But let me tell you ladies out there, please stop begging for you ex to come back to you. I did it too. I begged him to come back to me and you know what, it made things worst. If the guy says no, then its final. Let him be. Masakit man tanggapin pero we have to endure the pain. I was depressed for 9 months. He broke up with me and I thought kaya ko but no, masakit and I begged him to love me again but he didn’t. Nag walwal ako halos every night after work, but you know what, drinking will not solve anything. Naubos lang sweldo ko, wala pa akong savings dahil sa pag aakala na mawawala ang sakit kapag ng walwal ako.
Yes, masakit na ipagpalit tayo sa iba but please learn to let go. It’s easier said than done, but you have to pick up yourself one by one. It took me 9 months to realize that he was not worth it. Sinayang ko lang yung sweldo ko sa alak dahil lang sa kanya. He was not worth it because, sa tagal ng relsyon namin ilang beses ko syang nahuling ng cheat. Lagi syang bumabalik sa ex nya at dahil marupok ako, pinatawad ko, minahal ko pa ulit. It was last year when he said na ayaw na nya, at later I knew na meron na pala siyang bago. I tried to get him back but you know hindi na tama kasi uulitin nya lang ang panloloko sa akin. If he is continuously hurting you, then girl, let go. Let him go. Masakit man, but you have to let go if you are the only one holding on.
Lets be frank, you love him but deep inside you are hurting because you know deep inside that he doesn’t love you as much as you love him.
While I was on the process of moving on, the only one who helped me was the Lord. Yes, sir Lord talaga. I prayed everyday and every night na sana matanggal lahat ng hatred and pain sa heart ko and just a few months back, bigla na lang nawala na parang wala na akong pakialam. Nakalimutan ko na ang sakit. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted. He heard me. So kung broken ka, pray lang. Pray lang talaga. God hears you.
There are no shortcuts in the healing process but you will make it through. Akala ko mamatay na ako pero buhay pa ako ngayon and I am more happier now. Kahit single man, okay lang kasi alam ko that God will give me someone who will make me whole again. Don’t rush things. Learn to wait and please don’t ever beg. Let go of that toxic ex who don’t see your worth and wait for the right man that God will give you.
Kaya nyo yan. Ako nga nakaya ko, so kaya nyo rin.