Mess We’ve Made

“I’d been so strong for so long

I could handle everything

Now that you’ve gone through that door

I can’t see anything”

We’ve been through a lot. 3 years of friendship is not a joke. Adventures, emotional breakdowns through song covers, random hang-outs, and our never ending arguments (and you always win because i have this motto that its better to lose the argument than the person, so i can win if i dont have this lol) that ends to you saying sorry or me or whatever and we will just end up laughing unto something. you are special to me. And i never thought that this day will happen wherein i have to move on and decide to let go of you.

“Let this come crashing down

There’s no way to fix it now

We’re lost in the crowd

and our love will soon decay

Just look at the mess we’ve made

We both know that we can’t stay”

I never saw it happen. Like yes, we are inlove. You love me and i love you. 

“I was hoping that this would last

I guess I was wrong

Ohh

I planned out a future together

But now that’s all gone

Ohh, oooohhh

Another mistake (another mistake)

Ooooohh

We’re both to blame (we’re both to blame)”

We even made plans for our future, our wedding, how many kids, what should be the possible things to do to make a living. All this wonderful things, your promises, our covenants, but it turns out to be just plans. Just words. Because you are uncertain. i admit, i have mistake here, of course i do. Im very sorry for that. But i thought you are certain for us, because i am. honestly speaking, i am. that i just need to wait until we are both done with our things, but before that happens, we already ended. You decide to end everything because you have to do the right thing. And i feel so alone and at abyss that time. Thinking that did i just stay on something that is very wrong? It hurts me a lot.

“Everything we ever had now is ending

I didn’t wanna have to say our goodbye (didn’t wanna have to say goodbye)

Baby, It’s best we let this go

Trust me

It’s better if we just let this come crashing down

There’s no way to fix it now

We’re lost in the crowd and our love will soon decay

Just look at the mess we’ve made

We both know that we can’t stay

I’m sorry but I can’t stay

Just look at the mess we’ve made”

But now, after months of not accepting the fact that we are over, i realized that you have a point. That we are not for each other. You just keep on hurting me and i will just keep on disappointing you. We really have to grow apart. There’s a lot of things to learn in this life. And if were still together, i think we cant find those treasures. 

i want to take this opportunity to say, Thank you for everything. You are an amazing person, you are always appreciated. I will always love you here. And if someday, God’s will for us is to be together, forever, we are so much ready for that because we already grown ups freaks hahahaha.

See you when i see you.

taylor york.