Totoo pala talagang magkakasugat ka at masasaktan if you dedicate yourself in loving someone na laro-laro lang ang lahat para sa kanya.
I’ve realized this kanina when I’m playing with my 1-year old niece. I am so in love with her that I want to kiss and hug her always. Earlier, she’s extra sweet with me. She’s been hugging me a lot and teasing me to kiss her. I’m so kilig talaga so I played with her more. She was teasing me, and I love it! Not until I hurt myself. Sa sobrang habol ko sa kanya to get her kisses nabangga ako sa hagdan. I yelp kasi sobrang sakit. Hinawakan ko yung sa may mata ko banda kasi dun tumama but my niece was laughing and my mother too. They thought I was just acting but I was not. Sobrang sakit talaga ng mata ko banda sa kilay. Tumakbo agad ako sa kusina to get some ice. And my niece mimics me too, she held her right eye and said, “yayay!” I laughed because of her cuteness even though I am hurting. I thought konting bukol lang ang napala ko but nagkasugat pala ako, when I checked my hand may dugo na. And no one was able to notice it. I put some betadine sa sugat ko then my niece put some too. She was acting that she was hurt too. After the incident, my mother shared the story to my sisters and they all laughed. And here I am still hurting, with a bukol and a wound yet to heal.
See how your obsession and dedication to get that love you yearn for, would cause you? Some people would just tease you yet won’t want you. Sometimes, you will not see the danger when you’re in love, as long as you think you’re happy. Sometimes, even you are hurting you will not mind because you are so engrossed with the love you think they are giving.
Minsan nga kahit alam mong you are hurting na, go pa rin para sa minamahal. Kahit ikaw yung tunay na nasaktan may mga tao talagang babaliktarin ang sitwasyon at magpapanggap na biktima at ikaw ay manonood lang, walang magagawa dahil ikaw ang tunay na nagmamahal. Binigay mo lahat. Binuhos mo lahat ng atensyon at pagmamahal sa kanya. Binaliwala ang sariling damdamin. Pinagtawanan at minsa’y nalalait.
Hindi naman masama ang magmahal, basta ba’y alam mo ang iyong halaga. Masakit lang talaga if you are giving your all and putting a lot of effort to have a mature relationship yet siya ay laro-laro lang ng intention. Pero mas nakakasugat yung, you are ready and all mature to take a relationship yet siya ay baby pa spiritually. That is so absurd. You should not rush your own growth; you must think you could take it but it says otherwise. A premature growth would only lead to premature relationship and a lot of wound. Do not rush your own growth, most importantly do not rush love. Leave everything to the Most High who created all things, including your love story. Maybe, you are still a toddler who is just acting like an adult trying to level-up everything but pretending couldn’t last forever. You are just a toddler yet, that’s why you are still so engross to someone who’s of your age. Kids wants the company of other kids too, they want to play with their own. Kaya baka ka nasasaktan nang todo because you are rushing everything. Mas maganda if unahin muna natin maging mature spiritually so we could attract someone who is spiritually mature too.
Remember, you are precious at hindi dapat basta-basta sinasaktan lang. You are worthy, kung hindi niya makita iyon hindi siya para sayo. You are meant to be love because you are loved by our Lord. You are precious in His eyes. And you are precious to the one He has prepared for you. Don’t give your love easily. Pray for the right one and wait for the perfect time – not your time but God’s perfect time. Minsan may darating na paiibigin ka at pakikiligin lang but hindi ka ipu-pursue kaya mag-ingat mga kapatid. Iwasang mag “wave back” uso pa naman yan ngayon. Instead of waving back or saying hi, extend your devotional time! Invest more kay Lord! Invest pa more tayo kay Lord! Galingan muna nating maging single!