An Open Letter to my Second Love.
I am grateful that fate allows us to meet each other even just for a little period of time. It was short but full of sweet moments. I am glad that during those times, you showed me love I’ve never felt before. You showed me care that covered up my past. You made me feel important by introducing me to your special ones. You have taught me that the opinion of others doesn’t matter over us. You showed your love to me without hesitation though i felt embarrassed of your sweetness sometimes but still I don’t mind it as long as I am with you. You’re doing your best to protect me from distractions that hinder me from seeing the beauty in front of me. I wanted to slow down every minute when I’m spending time with you because I don’t know what tomorrow holds and I am afraid that time will come that we have to end our story.
Everything was clear to me. We have lots of differences as an individual. There are so much opposites between us. We don’t have a lot of things and interests in common. We don’t have the same level of faith, beliefs, and perspectives in life. We have different past and stories. But isn’t it nice to think that by not meeting those standards and by seeing our flaws and scars teaches what unconditional love is? Those differences could fill in the missing piece that couldn’t be found on the other one. Knowing that we don’t deserve each other because we are not worthy shows what grace is because God gave us each other instead.
Before we departed, you said that you have learned a lot of things from me. I hope you learned that having me or being in a relationship will never satisfy your cravings. Because it’s only God that could fill in the void and the emptiness that will make you feel complete. I hope you learned that apart from God we are nothing. Relationships that doesn’t honor Him and make Him not the center of it will never be blessed and perhaps it will not last longer. I hope you learned that during your darkest hour God still sees you as His son and still worthy of love. I see you the way God sees you because love sees no right or wrong person. During those times that you can’t sleep at night, God is watching over you and waiting for you to talk to Him.
He loved you at your darkest.
I am grateful that somehow I have planted a seed in your heart. Let it grow and believe me you will see the fullness of life if you choose to obey God and seek His will into your life. He is sure of your future. He had planned it so well. You will find a real home. You will find your purpose. He didn’t promised that life would be easy but He will always be with you because He is committed to you.
“God will give you a new heart and put a new Spirit in you. He will remove from you a heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.”
Ezekiel 36:26
I am glad that we have closed our chapter with love and acceptance and by choosing the best for us. It hurts but it was the right thing to do.
Thank you for letting me go. For choosing what is right for me. For choosing me to stay for who I am. I might have stayed and ended up broken. It was a tough battle with my faith. By doing so, you bring me back closer to my First Love. It’s a love that wins.
I hope to see you grow. Grow in faith and grow in becoming the man God wants you to be. I hope you will find someone that will push you deeper into having a relationship with Him. I hope that you will be surrounded by people who will always believe and pray for you. I hope that you will be able to align your plans to His plans. Whenever you feel lost, unloved, unimportant or insecure, remember that you belong to Someone in heaven who died for you because He sees you differently. You are loved with an everlasting love.
Maybe loving someone means letting go of the person and trusting God that whatever you surrender into His hands will come back to you a thousand times better. Sometimes loving someone means returning him or her back to his or her Creator. God made everything beautiful in its time. Waiting can be tough but it is a season wherein we can prepare ourselves before the right one comes. Beautiful things take time.
Off we go to our next season.
“Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things, love never fails.” //1Corinthians 13:7💕
