You’ve been through a lot. You are still trying to recover. You’re not even at the beginning of the process yet. You’re trying to skip a lot of steps to get through the finish line. You have to remember there’s no shortcut in healing. It’s not going to be too long, if you are just taking every step with the time you need for each.
It is not going to be easy, but it’s not going to be that hard (not a song lyrics). When you learn that you’re one foot is already forward, you’re even going to notice that you are already walking through the path of healing.
Your recent pain was just today and you are already jumping into another water without checking it’s temperature so as your own condition. You need to recover from the previous frostbites you tried to endure because of those previous relationships that turned your soul into stone cold.
Go out! Yes! Be exposed to the warmth of the sun. Don’t just lay in bed the whole day with all those back logs that you took home from work to keep your mind busy, so you won’t look “not okay”. Stop fooling yourself with those dating apps. It’s not going to help you recover from the ache of yesterday’s pain. Talk to a real person in real life. Avoid your gadgets, hangout with your friends in person, and go check on your family. You need them as much as they need you. Someone needs you and you need someone, indeed. No man is an island, just like the old saying say. You may think for now that you don’t need anyone because you think that you are just a heavy burden for them for you think you are a toxic person. Everybody is toxic, just get out there and uplift your burden together.
It’s okay to have thoughts of moving forward but it doesn’t mean that you need a lover to be with you along the way. You’re stronger than what you think you are. You heal on your own with the aide of the people who care for you and be ready for the next set of gale in life but never jump into the hurricane in front of you; nor runaway from it. Just stay still. Know you’re strength and don’t let the storm put you down. Hold on to your backups–your family and friends–face the tempest together.
Now you want to be okay. It’s okay not to be okay as they say, but please let someone know you need you’re not okay. Don’t just show them your fake smiles and laughs, let someone know you also need help.
The journey’s not yet done. You may still perpetrate things that might make you suffer again, or things you may regret doing in the future. Just allow yourself experience it but make sure that you are getting stronger as you deal with it.
Let yourself be in the process. Don’t blame anyone, not even yourself. Being vulnerable is what makes you human, just be human because you are one.
