Prayers are Conversations with God: An Excerpt from My Diary

Dec. 8, 2019, 2-something PM

Dear God,

              Thank You! And I LOVE YOU! YOU JUST KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED. This. Solitude. By the beach. A beer by the beach. A cocktail by the beach. A bed parasol by the beach, overlooking the beach. Listening to the sound of You in the air. In the waves. In this peace. Away from the noise of the world. I feel You in the leaves rustling, the smiles of the friendly staff. The delicious food I ate. I feel You in this peace. In this stillness. You are great and You are awesome.

              I will not try to decode anything in my life anymore. All I ever really pray is that whatever I may think, choose to do, feel, whether it’s a positive or negative feeling, and whatever I choose to do with these feelings, however I choose to act, if I choose to be silent and put up my walls, or if I choose to let down my guard and be vulnerable, may it be according to what You have planned. Give me the courage to do Your will.

              You have said to me, a while ago, my life is a beautiful tapestry that You have so knitted and threaded beautifully, wonderfully. I believe in it. Because You love me so much. You knew what I needed at the right time. You knew what I needed to recharge. I am loving my solitude so much, with You. I am scared that I don’t want to go out into the world anymore. Don’t make me lose this peace. Teach me to hold on to this peace when I go back to the noisy world. My heart is Yours. Guard it and guide it. Please. I love you so much.

                                                                                                                                 Kathleen

4-something PM

LESSONS FROM THE VIRGIN BEACH RESORT

• Life is a long drive. Enjoy it as much as you love long drives. Enjoy the road. The pavement. The feel of the wheels on the concrete. The trees dancing and glittering with sunlight along the way. Enjoy the music, the podcast, whatever you choose to listen at a moment in time. Enjoy the wrong turns, the stopovers. Wherever you are in your journey, know that God will always lead you to where you are meant to be. Let go of the fear. The journey is just as important as the destination. You will reach your destination in PERFECT TIME. It might not be perfect altogether, but it is perfectly imperfect, and it is exactly what you need. Yet your destination is not an end in itself, but a form of a stopover, until you reach your ultimate destination that is in Me.
• The waves will come, but be still. Learn to flow with the waves. The contradiction of life is this: you flow when you are still. I am the water that buoys you. I am the waves that propel you. I am the sunlight on your face. I am the sand on your feet. I am the air that whispers in your ear. I am everything that is nothing. I know your heart. Your heart is mine, and I AM YOURS. I am who I am. I am who is. I AM GOD.