It’s been a year since I told you my heart belongs to him. I chose him over you kasi akala ko mas magiging masaya ako sa kanya. I was blinded by the pressure of wanting to fix what I had broken with him. ‘Di kita pinili hindi dahil you were not enough but because I thought it would be better to come back to where I came from—sa kanya.
I’m sorry I broke your heart. Lagi ko ‘tong sinasabi sa sarili ko if ever man na hindi sa’yo. You were one of the most genuine people I’ve ever met. You took the second biggest part of my healing. (Si Lord kasi ang sa biggest). You loved me for who I am and you understood all my mixed signals. Nang dahil din sa’yo, nag-grow ang faith ko kay Lord tapos noong wala na tayong koneksyon, nawalan ako ng prayer buddy.
Ayokong mag-assume na ako pa rin. Ayoko ring isipin na ako pa rin hanggang ngayon. I want you to love someone else and be genuinely happy with her. I want you to chase your dreams first bago mo ako i-pursue o kung sino man ang natitipuan mo ngayon. Gusto kong maging busy ka sa ibang bagay rather than thinking about me who only broke your heart.
I pray you all the best things in life, my home buddy. One day if we will meet again, I pray that you’re successful na. I pray that you already found the woman whom you will be with for the rest of your life at makakasama mo sa pagwoworship kay Lord. If I haven’t told you, you are a rare kind of species. You were the diamond that I threw because I picked up the stone.
