Dear You,
I know how hard things are for you. You were left hanging, and without an explanation by that person whom you entrusted your heart to. It’s insane how you woke up one day, feeling lost and wanting an explanation. You keep on sending messages to express how you feel, you wait for a half baked responses for you to have hope that things will get back to how it was. Because of the gravity of the situation, you cannot eat, sleep or even work. This is the first time you have seen yourself vulnerable, and you just wish that this is a nightmare. It feels like time stood still, and all you can do is wait.
Days pass by, and you slowly become better. You realize that being sad is enough; life goes on anyway. You have responsibilities to fulfill, and people who are rooting for you. Gradually, you go back to your routine, and start to enjoy things by yourself, you embark on that journey on working on yourself, while still hoping that you’re given the chance to make things right. A second chance to prove yourself, to make it up to that person, whom you thought was worth fighting for.
As you begin to love yourself and heal from what has happened, you are now at a crossroad. Is it still worth it to wait for this person, or take the chance to be with someone new? After doing all that self-work, it will come to you that you deserve better. You are beautiful inside and out, and you deserve to be treated right. You become ready to meet people and date, and found out that there are people out there who will sweep you off your feet, and love how you wanted to be loved. It will sink in that he/she was your only option because you put him/her on a pedestal.
Months ago, I was on this exact journey. It was difficult, soul-crushing, and painful. I never thought that the person I loved can simply walk away without any reason. I am blessed to be surrounded with loving friends who have picked me up, and helped me go through everything. After episodes of crying, and sinking in that I’m wasting my time on the wrong person, I got to know myself again. Things will get better, as soon as you learn to let go. Trust the process, and learn what needs to be learned. When you’re ready, you will meet that person who will will make you understand why things did not work out in the first place. You’ll find that kind of love that is patient, kind, and understanding; something that you thought you did not deserve.
Whatever it is that you’re going through, always choose to do what is good for you. Be kind to yourself, and bear in mind that a younger version of you who is proud of how far you’ve become. You’ll get to the other side, I promise. And when you get there, it will always be worth it.
