What If…..

I have this fear inside me that I can’t understand. Every day I pray to God to remove this fear. The fear of losing someone’s attention, the fear of being ignored, the fear of not being loved, the fear of maybe one day everything will changed drastically. Because this “someone” is so special to me.

What if one day….

I might lose him…

I am afraid.

But God said, “Take that road my daughter, do not fear… Because I am always with you, I will never leave you nor forsake you… all your prayers will not be in vain”

“Take that road….” A confirmation to my prayers from God that I need to obey.

Delayed obedience is still disobedience. Partial obedience is still disobedience.

How far can I trust God from a situation that seemingly impossible for me?

We cannot understand it based on our own human understanding. We need grace. His love is sufficient. We need to ask wisdom from God. Scripture says “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, Who gives generously to all without finding fault and it will be given to you.”

– James 1:5

And I was reminded by this verse

“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” – 1 John 4:18

Been battling on this emotion for how many months now. Talking to God everyday about this “someone” Did a prayer and fasting 3 times for this guy. I even deactivated my social media for 18 days! But God is so silent. But He never failed to comfort me, strengthen me, mold me, prepares me, guarded my heart and gave me peace-and I realized that’s all I need, Only HIM. His Presence. My powerful fortress.