24th Day of Break-up

Grabe ang bilis ng araw, May na nakalain mo yun, it will be our another Monthsary tomorrow if we were still together. Pero hindi na yun mangyayari, I was crying a lot these past few days lalo kagabi after I went to dorm sa Wawa, sobrang miss na miss na kita..I am wondering how are you, how was your run, san ka kumain.. I even recorded a voice message saying I really love and miss you so but hindi ko sya kayang isend. How can I do that, when I always think of what you message me on that day of our break-up? You were miserable even when I was with you the whole time? You felt physically and mentally devastated because of me? I gave you everything and hindi ko sinumbat sayo lahat ng ginawa ko because I did those things out of love.. Hindi ko alam kung pano ko nagawang umuwi nung gabi na yun, and kahit man lang tanungin mo if nakauwi nako sa Manila or Bulacan, I didn’t even receive a single message. Mahal mo ba talaga ko? Yun ba talaga yung love na kaya mong ibigay? Sana if mabasa ko to after few months or years, maging lesson na lang to sakin. I’m not wishing na may mangyari sayo or anything, I still pray every night na sana lagi kang safe sa mga trainings and races mo. Sobrang hirap lang talagang tanggapin right now, na yung taong mahal na mahal ko, chose to give me up so easily kahit lahat ginawa ko for you. I hope na matanggap ko to and mapagdaanan, and if we ever meet again, sana matanggap ko na hindi ka na para sakin.