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Maybe I liked him too much before, but that’s not the same anymore. 

Maybe I liked him too much before, but that’s not the same anymore. 
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Maybe I liked him too much before, but that’s not the same anymore. 

I always believe that each person is meant for someone. Way back then, I was so busy building myself that I don’t have time to think about getting involved with someone. Then, I met you. It was my first time to feel something like this. It was my first time to disregard all my doubts because I thought maybe you’re the one for me. You’ve made me feel like I’m the most important person in your life. You gave me your time. You always check up on me. You always wait for me. You always compliment me. You were always there.

Sometimes, I unconsciously stare at you and smile. I’m thinking that maybe you might be the one for me. Maybe, I was the one meant for you. Maybe, I am beginning to finally feel to have someone who really cares. Maybe, you love me. Yes, you act like you care, you said that you like me, but you never said that you love me.

Maybe, you’re just not good with words. That’s why you have shown me your feelings through actions and maybe, I was just too impatient to hear your words of love.

I was contented with what we have in this moment because you’re here beside me. You were so fond of me. But then, when I was ready to ask you about us, you disappear. You left me hanging. You didn’t even say goodbye. You just literally vanished like a thin air in a clear blue sky.

It hurts. I cried. I wondered. I asked myself. What’s wrong with me? I thought he loved me. I thought he cares. I thought he’s the one. Maybe, I was not enough. Maybe, I was not pretty. Maybe, I’m not lovable. Or maybe, I assumed. I stopped right there. Yeah, I think I assumed too much.

I was angry. Yes. But I realized that, maybe he’s not a man enough to pursue me. Maybe, he came into my life just to teach me a lesson. Maybe, it’s my time to give myself a chance. Maybe, he’s not worth it. But still, I want to thank him for making me feel special even just for a while, for telling me beautiful even though I look messy, for cheering me up when I feel down, and for making me feel that I am needed.

Maybe, he did liked me but we were not meant for each other. I hope he’s happy now and he will never do to others the same thing he did to me. Yes, maybe I liked him too much before, but that’s not the same anymore.

I am sure that I’m going to meet the right person at the right time. I may never know when, but I will surely figure it out once we cross our way. A man who’s brave enough to pursue me, and a man who will lead our relationship closer to God.