Are we in a dark place again?
Can’t see a single ray of light
Nothing shiny, pretty or bright
Just a space full of confusion
Unable to read the room, the real situation
The push and pulls that we encounter
Feels more like a struggle, far from any banter
It gets bad before better
There will be rainstorms but not forever
Then I saw you, I met you, I spoke to you
Here I am, I think I’m lost trying to understand you
Unaware of what to do
I keep reading too much into you
Every word that you say
Even the smirks, smiles and glances you throw my way
I’m lost when I see you walk into the room
Can I just keep looking at you?
I swear I can do it all afternoon
In crowded spaces I look only for you
Then I realize it’s just all in my head
Wishing that you want to wakeup with me next to you in bed
Just you beside me
The moment I open my eyes your face I’d see
But it’s still all in my head
All just fascinations I dream about
Thinking that it’s me and you in the end, without a doubt
Why are there dreams like this if in the end it only destroys us?
Why hope when our heart and mind we can’t even trust?
Just for a moment I desire for rest
Rest from all the crying, from the feeling of dying
Just for a second I crave for peace like my life depended on it
Like nothing else could distract me, like my life wasn’t full of bullshit
Just for a certain amount of time I want my mind to stop and then everything goes black.
I guess this dark place isn’t so bad
I can be all dark and twisty and still desire to hold your hand
I shouldn’t be scared of a place I’m constantly in
This dark place is my solace it’s where I end and also where I begin
It’s where I will be able to rest and maybe understand what I really feel
