“Perhaps our story will always be about you happening a little too early and me coming to my senses a little too late.” -Tala Gardoce
Today, I am liberating myself from every emotions and giddy feelings I’d hidden from the very first day I’d laid my eyes on you.
You came along at a point in my life when I built my walls up high, installing beliefs as to how I can mold myself into becoming a stronger woman. Pushing and moving forward after a dreadful heartbreak from an ‘almost- relationship’.
All those time, I was on my deepest pit of despair and hopelessness, without even relaizing it. I tried my best to mask my bitterness by living my life day-by-day shrugging off memories and feelings I had shared with him.
Then, suddenly, you came along.
The first time I met you, I stared at you blankly with the same eyes that has cried a river from the previous night.
But the crazy thing is, I felt it. I felt my heart beating so wild from my chest but I’ve chosen to ignore it.
You are kinda cute, tall, has neat hair and is well-groomed. You are so timid, gentle and a low-key perfectionist.
You were asked if you have a girlfriend and when you said no, every eyes shifted toward my direction with that smirks and playful smiles. I blushed everytime you were teased about me but I hid it through rolling my eyes and sarcastic laughs.
But, I can’t deny the sudden rush of feelings. It was THAT familiar feeling I am trying to get rid off. I can’t do this again, not now, not until my heart is ready.
I tried my best to avoid you. Convincing myself, WE won’t happen. WE can’t possibly happen.
Every circumstances, every chances led me to you. I got to know you and your ambitions. I got to know your passions and personality better.
I guess, you are an old soul- not the typical person that belonged in this generation. That’s why I was drawn to you and the idea rekindled my eagerness to know you better.
You amazed me with your beautiful voice. (Bagay ka talaga mag pari!)
My infatuations toward you were getting out of hand each passing day.
But, as expected, everything has its ending.
You opened up your plans of continuing your education somewhere in Mindanao and of fulfilling your dream of becoming a priest someday.
You left.
Leaving me hanging.
But still, I’m happy for you. 🙂
Thank you for the rough 3 months of friendship.
You left me with nothing but a new hope within me. You made me realize my heart still stood a chance of loving someone again. You healed me in some ways I couldn’t imagine possible.
Thank you for being such a blessing. I guess it’ll took me a while to get over the idea of you leaving.
T’was really nice meeting you, JC! 😊 Good luck on your future endeavors.
