To You.

I need you to find me and fast because I’m already roaming the world for you. Get on board and meet me halfway if you can.

To my future life partner. I wrote this letter solely just for you.

Honestly, I don’t know where to start but I really really want to finish it so you’ll know the difference between me before and after I met you.

Well, I’d been through a lot of serious struggles in life before I met you. I wasn’t able to get out of it unscathed, mentally, and emotionally that I could be sensitive at some things that might be so simple for you. I really hope that you would cut me some slack for those moments when I’m struggling to balance everything. You may have gone through a lot worst in life than I did so I promise to be more attentive to your changing moods as well. And you know, we can switch stories about our life challenges sometimes. I bet we could learn more about each other’s strengths and weaknesses through that.

I’m not that much blessed in the “Looks” department which I hope won’t turn you off when you see me someday. Really, in the scale of one to ten where ten is the highest, I’m on five and trying really hardly to get to six. I try – believe me, I do – to look as neat and fresh everyday so no one from my friends would tell you otherwise (I hope). I may not be gifted with a handsome face (face palm), but I am smart (on my own standard), wise beyond my years and very determined. I have enough  insecurities to last someone a lifetime and that’s because I am fighting all my life to get through everyday. Literally

Be very patient with me please. I’m certain that we will not always see eye to eye on some things but I promise to keep my mind open for your suggestions. I love to argue, trust me on that baby, not because I want to dominate and be the superior one from us two but because I want us to come up with a decision that is beneficial. Once we are in an argument, I promise not to yell at you and expect the same in return. The family I came with is like that and I swear to myself not to do the same when I finally had my own.

Confide in me. Tell me all about your secrets and I swear I’ll protect it with all my life. I’ll tell you mine too. I don’t know about you but mine are secrets that will make you frown and ask why. I have hundreds and one of them is Fear of being alone. Right. I try to make people laugh every time because I want them to feel like I’m funny and witty and so they would like to have my company always. But the truth is, I don’t know how to be alone and deal with my own mind. Seriously I got used to be surrounded by friends that I have no idea what to do when I’m the only one in the room​.

I’ve never been anyone’s priority nor one’s significant partner so I’m sure that we will break each other’s heart at some point in our relationship. I just hope that we could be stronger after each one.

I won’t hold back my tears. I’ve done so many mistakes in my life before you came along. I lie, deceive and cheat everyday. It’s too tempting to just say once in a while but there is really a world of difference between everyday and once in a while, don’t you think?

Teach me the importance of adventure and how will it strengthen our bond as a couple. Its embarrassing but I never had the pleasure to travel abroad or ride a plane for that matter. I’d like to explore places, places I only see on Google Search. I’d like to see the world through your eyes someday. Make that happen okay?

If you’re upset, let me know. I would do everything on my power to chase that away. I would never want anything to go between us. It would ruin what we have and I cannot have that. Remember, tell me everything and I assure you the same.

You are everything to me and I love you too much. I’m in love with you even before I know what true love was. I would be very happy to know that I successfully made it to the top of your priorities, as you did mine.