nakaexperience ba kayo ng ganito mga cactus?

yung in add ka, tapos Nilandi, tapos hinarot tapos naghost?

so ganito yun…

mga guys who keep adding me on Facebook, makikipagfriends. consecutively liking photos of me and my daughter at the same time.

Chat friends-un pero walling label wag naramdaman ko mejo nalandi sila-i step back. pero minsan I tried to keep the landi words moving just to feed my soul and my confidence full narin since I was single for how many years na rin.

“may pa good morning, hi! hello! miss you! mwah! goodnight pa.”

may mga naging kachat ako na sweet then caring then all of a sudden-images of their thing (alam mo na) ang mare receive ko-nakakagulat. di naman ako bastos, manyak or what. gusto ko lang ng pang-seryosohan. I don’t really understand bakit sila magsesend ng “thing” nila sakin.

mga ilan na rin silang mga gumawa sakin into – 4 different guys, all from different group of friends and mejo traumatic na. sinubukan ko ichange ang topic lalo na kung lumalandi na ang usapan. di naman nako bata and sa experience ko sa father ng daughter ko is much more traumatic.

yung bakit ako? yung bakit ganyan kayo? yung bakit may ganitong photo? bakit may dirty photos? laging ganun ang nagiging outcome ng “get to know you phase” then biglang ghosting.

dahil wala ko sa philippines, and most of these guys din ay working overseas and some sa Philippines, di ko maintindihan bakit lagi ako nakakaencounter ng “romantic na mabait to malilibog” guys at the end.

di ko maintindihan anu lang ba gusto nila, seryoso ka naman. walang motibong masama sa una. pero sa Huli ikaw pa pala ung naloko, at pinaaasa. it became a cycle, iba iba guys, pero pareparehas sila ng gusto.

kayo may experience kayong ganito?

-cactus jyn