I can’t tell you I LOVE YOU (but i do)

I look at you as more than you are to currently.Because to me you are everything i’ve ever wanted but mostly because you treat me as though i matter.As if my opinions and everything i want is to you too.And that was love is .But i can’t tell you iloveyoo.I can’t tell you every nights before i go to sleep i think about you..I think about you when i can’t got through the day without wanting to cry..You are home to me and just hearing your voice reminds me how that feels,and when people ask me if im in love with you i tell them “NO” because i don’t want to be the cause of losing you, even though we mean too much to each other, it doesn’t mean that we need to be together .Thats when the lines of loving and being in love with someone are blurred.And my lines in you are blurry.I can’t tell you what’s on my mind and my heart because i don’t know.Sometimes we’re meant to meet someone who takes our breathe away but not get to be with that person and it’s unfair.It’s so unfair that we are surrounded by their beauty but we can’t touch them.We can’t tell them how much they mean to us.Without giving away our secrets .We can’t let them know that they are the last thing we see at night and first name that breathe as we woke up.We can learn so much from each other but only if we keep it up to the capacity that is it at.And im not fully sure risking everything to tell you my feelings would be the smartest because i don’t feel as though we’re on the same page and that’s ok to not be exactly at the same moments in life.It’s ok not to feel the same kind of attraction but let me tell you it’s the hardest thing i’ve ever done to keep my mouth shut about this because i feel myself breaking..if ever we did cross patha as lover’s instead of friends, i know that i wouldn’t need anyone else.So maybe we’ll end up together or maybe  we won’t but all i know is this

AS LONG AS YOU EXIST IN MY WORLD, I’LL BE HAPPY jNO MATTER WHAT CAPACITY✨🖤

Xoxoxo
-M