Throughout my life, I have realized that love stories in the real world are not like the fairy tales that I grew up watching. It is not smooth sailing. It is not just like what I have dreamed of. It would be tough and challenging most of the time, but all I ever wanted was to have a relationship that would last. A love that accepts all of my flaws. A love that sees me for who I am and loves me anyway. A love that encourages me to grow everyday. A love that makes me feel secure. A love that helps me to be the best version of myself. I won’t expect it to be flawless and carefree. I know it would be hard to surpass trials as I decide to love someone. But as those problems arise, I pray that love will always prevail.
I have a lot of anxieties when it comes to love. I fear abandonment. I fear rejection. I fear that one day, the person who made my heart beat would leave it in the end. I fear that one day, I might not be enough. But I know that the right person would always make me feel that I am more than enough. I don’t have to constantly ask for affirmation, because he makes me feel loved without conditions. That person would make me feel that I was the best thing that ever happened to him. That person would assure me that he will always be there, even if things are hard. That person would fulfill his promises to me, even if it makes him uncomfortable sometimes. That person would do his best just to see me happy all the time. That person will remove all of my fears away because his actions show that his love for me is real. That person will make me cry. Not because of grief, but because of the joy and awe that someone loves me just the way I am. That person will stay.
I don’t want a perfect relationship, I want a love that will last. Because if it lasts, then it is love. It never gives up. I hopes and trusts no matter what. It won’t always be easy, but I will always choose to stay. This kind of love would fill in the missing piece of the puzzle in my life. This love will always make me feel whole. This love will stick with me, no matter what. This person will always choose me, no matter what. That is why I will choose to breathe and remove my fears. Because with this love, I will gladly take the risk.