Maybe you’ll notice that I don’t text or call you anymore. I finally decided to stay a little bit away from you, natatakot kasi ako na baka hanap-hanapin ko ‘yung atensyon na you give. I don’t want myself to expect from you because sa una palang, you already explained and it’s clear na we are just friends.
I would like you to know that I am doing this because ayoko na magkaroon ng conflict kung anuman ang meron tayo. I hope you know that I am very grateful to have you in my life, you brought additional colors since you came. You became my human diary for a sort of time, you became a kuya, you are my unexpected person, someone I always look forward to talk and spend time with. I am very happy every time I am with you. You comfort me, I feel safe, I feel happy like dancing in the cloud happy, hihihi!
You are one of a kind and a wonderful person, I hope you know that. I admire you in ways you can’t imagine. There are things na nakikita ko sa personality mo that others cannot. Happy pill kita, alam mo ba yon? Miss kita palagi, alam mo ba yon? I am always eager to spend time with you kahit parang wala namang rason at hindi dapat.
Masaya ako. Feeling ko buo ako. Mas masarap din ang kape kapag ikaw ang kasama.
Pero I will stop here. Siguro, I should guard myself more from wanting to spend time with you. Mahirap kasi ‘pag mas lumalim ang pagtingin ko sayo. I am happy na magkaibigan tayo and I want to stay that way, ayoko naman umasa na mas lalalim pa tayo doon.
Mahirap kasi. Hindi naman pwede at hindi dapat. Baka maging rason pa sa pagkasira ng friendship, ayoko naman nun. You are special to me and I don’t want to totally lose you. Bibigyan ko lang ng kaunting oras ang sarili ko to reflect and to assess my feelings. Ang hirap kasi.
I cannot take the risk of getting hurt or rejected lalo na’t alam ko na may mahal ka namang iba. Siguro hanggang dito nalang talaga tayo and I should be grateful to the friendship we have.
Hindi ko man kayang iparamdam at sabihin pero Mahal na siguro talaga kita, pero hanggang dito nalang tayo.
