Nasaktan ako…
When word came to me na gusto mo raw ako, noong kunumbinsi ako ng kaibigan ko na okay ka naman daw, noong shini-ship tayo ng friends mo, noong nagpakita ka ng affection in your subtle words and actions. Inisip kong gusto mo talaga ako, umasa akong ipu-pursue mo ako, only to find out na takot ka naman pala.
I was hurt, silently, without anyone else knowing. Pakiramdam ko, ang unfair ng nangyari.
I have been denying it, pero nasaktan pala talaga ako. Para akong napahiya – because of you, because of them, and because of me – kasi nag-assume agad ako – kasi, nagustuhan agad kita.
But I forgive you, and I forgive them, and I forgive me too. I release this question, kung bakit nangyari sa akin ito. This serves as a lesson that real love is courageous, otherwise, it’s not love at all.
So whatever I have for you right now, the affection, emotion, and thoughts of admiration, it all ends here.
I forgive you, and I release myself too.
Silently,
Cleopatra
