I’ve seen you once and only for a brief moment but I will never forget that encounter.
Right then and there, I could have pulled your hair, dragged you on the streets, cursed at you and humiliated you.
Even until now, there were times I wished I’ve done those. But I did not and never will.
I respect others for I also wanted the same respect to be given to me.
I’ve been considerate with other people’s feelings and I never intend to make someone feel bad or much more, hurt.
I know the struggle of being left out hanging by someone who’ve been special to you.
I know exactly how it felt to be treated unjustly.
I’ve seen a lot of heartbreaking circumstances someone can experience brought by the person they love.
That is why, I myself was cautious not to take part or intend to cause someone to go through any of those.
I am a woman and I never did anything wrong to any girl in my life.
So I asked God, why this has to happen to me??
Until now, I still cannot understand why you (and him) did that.
You disrespected me, intentionally and selfishly.
Because of you, I lost the person I love.
By the way, He is not just the man I love, he was my home and my future.
I was hurt but that word wasn’t enough to describe what I felt.
It caused me to question my worth and my value as a woman.
It shaken my identity.
I had days when I can’t get up in the morning because I was so exhausted from the night of crying and thinking, times that it was just difficult for me to keep things together.
Now, I would like to ask you.
Does it make you feel good?
Does it gave you a sense of satisfaction?
Does it add to your “pagkababae”?
What I went through and the pain I felt was unimaginable and unbearable and I am still healing from it.
I still had difficult days and I am still hurting but I thank God for His love and grace that helps me to keep going.
If I don’t have Jesus in me, I cannot imagine how things would turn out.
Although I cannot forgive you yet and wish you happiness with the man I love, I genuinely hope that it will never be done to you for no one deserves to be treated that way.
I hope you can reflect on this, repent on your wrong doings and learn from those.
I would love to minister to you and be like an “Ate” if we meet on different circumstances.
