Eversince I decided
To go and left you just like that
I find it hard to lift this pen
Take out the cap
And just write to my heart’s content.
I wonder how could that be
When everything I wanted to write
Is about you.
And when you asked me
to write for you
One last time
I laughed bitterly and silently uttered:
All you want is one but guess what?
I could write for you forever.
But I don’t think you need that
Coz your heart longed for that
Someone who isn’t me
And will never be me.
But then I don’t want to be her
And be just a poor replacement
But then there are moments I wondered
If she didn’t go away
Will I ever be in your way?
But I gotta accept the fact
That no matter how much
You asked and beg me to stay
Still, I couldn’t
Not because I don’t want to
But I have to.
And it’s hard battle to win
When you don’t even know
Which side you’re in
When your brain says leave
While you still can
While your heart says stay
Where it makes you happy
But then life is a choice
Wherein you need to decide
And you’ve got to make one
No matter how hard it is
Sometimes.
Whenever the thought of you
Crosses my mind
I keep on telling myself
You think about me yes,
But not as often as I think about you
You miss my company yes,
but not as terribly as I miss you
You care about me yes,
but not as much as I care for you.
And that is the thing
That keeps me going
And stop me each time
I almost turn to get back to you
Is the fact that I would never settle
To be someone’s I don’t know.
