There I said it.
I told him how I dont trust him anymore. How everyday I think of him cheating again/still.
How I think everytime he is not in our house. that he might be visiting his mistress. even on mother’s day.
That everytime he asks money from me, I always think it’s to support her girl.
That anytime, someone would chat me again telling me that he is cheating again. Destroying another family.
Then he told me that no one will chat me. That he is just working that’s why he is not in our house.
Then I decided to go to the bathroom. Because anytime, my tears would fall while talking to him through messenger.
I was afraid I wouldnt contain my emotions anymore and cry. I was afraid my family would see me ask me why.
As I was in taking a bath, I opened my phone to play songs loudly. Enough noise so they wont hear me cry.
I felt it again. That pain from last year. Felt like my scar is bleeding again.
I wanted to cry soooo loud. I wanted to ease the pain. I wanted to disappear.
