To The One That Got Away
In life, we are constantly losing people. One day somebody wakes up and they just don’t feel the same way, or maybe it’s you that feels you’ve grown apart from them. When we lose somebody, we tend to lose a piece of ourselves, but sometimes that piece is bigger than you expected it to be. Its tragic and painful and that empty space they left never gets completely filled.
Its been awhile but it feels like I had you just yesterday. What I find the saddest about what happened between us is how nothing went wrong. It is something I never expected to happen.
When I first met you I never expected to have you in my life the way I did. You had always been someone I saw as a far off daydream than a piece of my reality. And it hurts me every day that we weren’t able to figure it out and continue to be as happy as we were. It especially hurts how nothing is the same, and it might never will be again. Sometimes I don’t know what’s worse, knowing I lost you or knowing you might never come back.
You are the one who got away for so many reasons. I don’t think I could’ve held on to you even I tried harder than I did, and I understand that you had your reasons and you needed to do what you needed to do. Some days the reasons are enough, and others, I am constantly overthinking about whether you meant it or whether there was more beneath the surface or whether I could’ve held on a little longer. But at the end of the day that isn’t going to change anything for you and I. I know now it’s too late. I’m doing my best every day to be okay with that.
Losing you was hard, it still is. I don’t think there’s ever going to come a time when I don’t miss you and everything we had. You’re probably long gone from those feelings, and maybe you will live the rest of your life without ever thinking of me again. Maybe one day, you’ll change your mind. Know I miss you, know I love you, know you have a piece of me no one will ever be able to replace.
“The back door will always be unlocked if you ever feel like coming home.”