So all those times I have been living my life on my own, I have come to realize and appreciate my alone time. There are moments that I think I am better with someone else but I can also feel that the universe is trying to tell these things to me.
I learned that am fine even if I don’t get any hand to hold. I can be genuinely happy even without someone whom I can hug in the middle of the night. I learned that I am doing just fine even if I don’t get any calls that reminds me to eat breakfast and take extra care on my way at work. The universe reminded me that there’s still happiness and contentment even if I am just by myself.
I learned that I am just fine even if no one’s there to listen on my bad days. It is okay to endure the bad days within myself sometimes. I learned that it is okay even if no one is there to absorb all the words I am going to say, I learned that I am okay without someone I can lean on and share how my day was, how tired I got home since traffic was very terrific. Still, I am just fine.
I learned that I am fine even if I am the only one who travels around places. I am fine even if I’m just the one making memories. I am enjoying my own company but it doesn’t mean I am lonely. Spending quality time for myself helps discover my inner strength, my innermost being.
I learned that I am fine without someone who will remind me that I am loved. Love is not just about having significant other. Love comes in different forms. It can be a cup of coffee treat from someone you helped two weeks ago, a free movie ticket from a friend who misses you over the weekend, your favorite home cooked meal made specially by your mom. And yes, I am fine with all these forms of love and affection.
Being alone for years made me realize that having no special someone is perfectly okay. It doesn’t mean you are not that loveable, you are not worth the love. Sometimes it means that you just have to take your time in getting to know yourself and appreciate yourself a bit more.
Alone does not equates to loneliness. It simple means that the universe is just taking its time giving you things you once asked and prayed for.
And one day, I know the universe will grant me someone whom I can spend the rest of my days with. I’ll believe that.
