When should it end?
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When should it end?

When does a relationship ends? Kapag ba nagcheat yung partner mo? Kapag ba ayaw sayo ng parents ng partner mo? If you are physically/emotionally abused?

I’ve been in 3 serious relationships.

I don’t really remember how my first relationship ended. All I know is, the moment it stopped, my world stopped as well. I’ve been too focused on loving him that I forgot how it was to love myself. I was young and naive. Yung feeling na kala mo siya na. He was my first. Sa lahat. Thats why when he left, he took my whole world with him. How did I move on? It took one beautiful accident. Yes, beautiful, it was not intentional, but it was meant to be. My son.

Then I had my second partner. He is not yhe father of my son. But, he loved me. All of me. Pero I can’t say I loved him as much as he did. I do care for him, but, I did not go all out on him. His parents are against us. I can’t say I fought hard for us, I just feel so protective on my son, that if people does not like me ’cause I have him, then, ekis na kayo. We ended it in good terms, but we’re not friends, I don’t think I can ever be friends with my ex partners.

Then, my current partner. She (I’m bisexual btw) said she love me. We lived together and my son was with us the whole time. I love her, sobra. Almost the same way I loved my first. She was my everything, to the point that I choose her over anyone else. I defended her to everyone, even to myself. All the physical and emotional pain, kinaya ko. Just to fight for what we have. Then when it became too much, I cheated.

Yes, you read it right, I cheated. I cheated with someone who she was before. Someone who loved me as much as she did before. Who respected me and treated me the way she did when we were starting. I cheated, and yes I am still cheating.

So when does it end? How does it end?

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