Sometimes, I wonder why
Things didn’t happen according to our desire.
Sometimes, I wonder why
Things are bound to break my heart.
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We were once happy back then
Fueled by sweet words and actions
Filled with love and inspiration
Strengthen by care and admiration.
You made me feel special –
Worthy of your trust,
Amazing efforts,
Precious, not wasted time.
You were once so happy with me,
Excited to meet me,
Delighted when I’m smiling, and
Amazed by the simplicity.
How does things went wrong?
Why were those days gone so easily?
Am I not enough?
Are we not enough?
Questions filled my mind
Heartbreaks to heartbreaks
Unexpected situations
From unexpected persons.
In a blink of an eye
Sweet kisses turned to memories
Sweet words to blaming one another
Future dreams to redirected prayers.
I once held on to someone like you
Someone whom I prayed –
To be my last and
Be a leader and a father to our children.
I once held on to your words
Words that are wholeheartedly felt
Words I thought are true,
But now all gone.
I want you to know that I loved you so dear
And still I am
Things might have been different
But oh, my love for you never changed.
You chose to break my heart
When you chose the other one
You chose to break my heart
When you cared for that someone.
Yes, I can’t deny that it does hurt
When I felt like the world fell above me
Whenever I saw you with her
Smiling, the way you looked at me before.
But after months of suffering
One thing is certain
I chose to let you go
Because God told me to do so.
I don’t blame anyone of what happened
Because I prayed for God to pave the way
I asked Him to made me realize
And reveal if you are really mine.
You know what,
I thank Him for that one night that I prayed
And after days He answered
Sadly, it was that situation.
Thank you for the memories, ***
I treasure every single smile I had with you
Although things went wrong unexpectedly
Know that I already forgave you
And I hope that you forgive me too.
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Now I realize
Why things are bound to break my heart
God is leading me
Bringing me back to the desire of His heart.
