Hey,
I fear that I will search for your face in the crowd
I fear that I will long for your voice
I fear that I will miss that smile on your face
I fear that I will be wanting to see you everyday
I fear that I will hope to see your message on my phone every minute
I fear that I will get upset every time that you ignore my messages
I fear that I will be affected of every little thing you say
I fear that I will think of you every single time
I fear that you will take me for granted for always being there
I fear that you will be intoxicated by my presence every time I message you
I fear that you will get tired of all my drama
I fear that you will find someone better
I fear that we will not be something I hoped us to be
I fear that we will end the friendship we had once things get complicated
I fear about everything
I fear losing myself
I fear losing you
I fear losing our friendship over some uncertain feelings
I fear getting attached to someone who’s not sure about me
I fear of waiting for someone who’s not certain of going back
I fear of falling to someone who will not probably be there to catch me
I fear of all the possibilities that might ruin and damage us eventually
I fear that I’ve been rejecting other people for someone who’ll leave me hanging
Things can go wrong
Things ALWAYS goes wrong
And I’m not brave either
I’m not brave enough to fight for what I feel because I fear pain
I fear of being consumed by all the why’s and if’s
I never want to feel the pain of questioning my worth anymore
Those moments when I ask myself why I wasn’t enough
The terrible unanswered questions of ‘What did I do wrong? Why did it come to this?’
I fear risking for someone who wouldn’t even risk for me– fight for someone unsure of me
I fear wasting my time for the wrong person
I fear hurting and being hurt
I fear falling in love
I fear, therefore, I withdraw.
