Naranasan mo na bang magmahal? Ano nga ba ang salitang “Mahal?”
Curious ako noon, gusto kong maranasan yung “love” na sinasabi nang lahat lalo na nung unang tungtong sa kolehiyo, until dumating yung time na naranasan kong mahulog ang loob ko sa isang tao, so I did my part to prove na karapat dapat ako. I don’t know why, ito yung feeling na gustong-gusto ko yung isang tao pero.. after all the chase, wala hindi pala ako yung para sa kanya.
It was heart breaking, to the point where I’m having bad academic records for the semester knowing I have to keep up with my grades to have the scholarship. Until I lost everything, good grades, friends and myself.
During the “heartbreak phase” a close friend invited me to an event sabi niya “concert”. Edi ako gustong-gusto ko yan para makalimutan ang mga bagay-bagay. Dumating na kami sa event, mali pala ako..Sa gabi palang ito babaguhin ako ni Lord all the pain, all the struggles will be sweep away. It was a Christian Fellowship Concert! At first syempre culture shock ako, di ko maunawaan kung bakit yung mga katabi ko ay naiyak. Nag-altar calling kasama ng mga kabataan during that night. I was staring sa projection of lyrics and the band started to sing Amazing Grace. “I once was lost but now I found, was blind but now I see. Oh I can see the love in your eyes” pumikit na ako, huma-haguhol na ako sa iyak.
4 years ago, I was looking for the “love” pero iba pala yung Love na ibibigay Niya sa akin, ang Pag-ibig na hindi magmamaliw. I am now serving Him in our church as a young adult committee leader. I was in the midst of the darkness, until I saw the light.
Praise you Jesus ! Thank you God !
