Connecting the dotsā€¦

Iā€™m a woman who loves to connect the dots because I get to analyze things, have a glimpse of what will happen next, and prepare myself for it. What amazes me the most is that more often than not, I get to connect the dots correctly. Hence, I always end up saying, ā€œI KNEW IT!ā€. I act like I donā€™t have any idea or I donā€™t notice at all but my mind has it all figured out.

To me, it seems like my intuition is my super power. Which explains why I have the tendency to be impatient because I already know what will happen next. However, it seems like God had enough of me trying to figure things out. He canā€™t tolerate me any longer so He placed me in a situation where He gave me a loooot of dots to connect. That whenever I try to connect one, another dot is added. But itā€™s not enough to discourage the detective conan thatā€™s living in me.

Until I got exhausted, frustrated, and disappointed because no matter how hard I try to analyze and trace the connection I just canā€™t boil everything up to one conclusion. I cannot see the bigger picture. The ideas always seem to branch out and if I continue using my detective conan skills, I might end up losing my mind.

During those times, Iā€™ve been asking God to be kind enough to let me see whatā€™s in it for me but God has been speaking to me through His word that I should quit overthinking and leave everything to Him, instead. That itā€™s not my job to discover and understand whatā€™s about to happen. What He wants me to do is just enjoy the ride as He take over the driverā€™s seat of my life.

I power struggled with the Lord actually but in my stubbornness, God never stopped pursuing me and appealing to me that I should just stop connecting the dots. It took months of battle with my Choleric self then I finally surrendered to the Lord.

After I made that decision, I noticed a lot of benefits that it has brought me. Here are some of it:
ā—I get excited for what tomorrow could bring.
ā—I am learning to enjoy every moment of my life.
ā—Iā€™m still quick to notice details but I no longer stress over it.
ā—I do not rush things anymore.
ā—Everytime a piece of the puzzle is being unfolded, it brings me great joy and amazement because Godā€™s word is in coherence with the dot thatā€™s before me.
ā—I can focus on what matters most.
ā—I always ask God to guide me in every step of the way.
ā—I appreciate and hold on to Godā€™s word even more.
ā—I can truly say that God has really taken over my life.
ā—Godā€™s sovereignty is finally emphasized over me.
ā—and many more.

It took time and it wasnā€™t easy because doing such means a total shift from the woman who I used to be. But now that I have finally surrendered, Godā€™s great peace and joy is running over in my life. Now, Iā€™m more like a kid who partnered with the Lord and is very excited in every step that we make. I fell in love with Him even more and how He carries me through it all. I love watching Him as He orchestrate things for my good. Just like a child waiting for her favorite viand to be cooked.

Thank God for the growth. Iā€™m now carefree. I feel so light as light as the feather and I hope you too will experience this in your life. I hope your eyes will sparkle as you wait for the fulfillment of His promises. Indeed, thereā€™s no better feeling than this šŸ˜Œ

P. S.
Itā€™s not that God doesnā€™t want us to know what lies ahead. He actually loves to give us clues and He can also tell us everything thatā€™s about to happen however if He do this, our pretty little mind canā€™t take hold of it. Our brain cannot process all the good things that God has in store for us. Thatā€™s why He opted to reveal one dot at a time. Just take it slow. God has already figured it out. Keep calm and have faith šŸ’•

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