Kelan ba?

Kelan kaya darating yung ako naman yung pipiliin? Yung hindi ako hahayaan na laging magquestion about sa worth ko. Yung tipong masisingit ako sa oras kahit pa gaano kabusy yung schedule niya. Yung hindi ko na kailangan maghintay ng matagal kung kelan ako muling maaalala. Kelan kaya darating yung para sakin? Kasi ang hirap ilaban… Continue reading Kelan ba?

Baka ngayon, pwede na ang “tayo”

—to someone I met in 2019 Puno ako ng panghihinayang ngayon. Hindi ko lubos maisip na mararanasan ko iyong ganito—magmahal sa tamang tao ngunit maling panahon. Apat na taon na makalipas nung una tayong pinagtagpo ng tadhana. Labing anim na taon ako noon at ikaw ay dalawang pu’t isa. Bago palang ako noon sa church,… Continue reading Baka ngayon, pwede na ang “tayo”

Sana

Alam ko namang walang chance na mabasa mo ‘to lahat pero magsusulat parin ako. Akala ko okay na ako after the 3mos rule pero kapag may mga kasama akong kaclose, maya’t maya ako nagrerelapse. Like halimbawa may bumili ng matcha yogurt bigla kong sasabihin, ” Favorite din niya yan eh.” Or sasabihan nila akong ang… Continue reading Sana

Same as… “It Was Over Before It Even Started”

In pursuit of a woman, my heart took flight, As she embodied my interest, shining bright. Thinking it was a yes from God’s divine sight, I admired her acceptance, her care, day and night. To know her better, her loved ones I’d explore, Excitement filled me as I opened each door. But after a while,… Continue reading Same as… “It Was Over Before It Even Started”

To someone I once never had and never will be

We got lost from the moment I realized the feeling was true You left unaware, how I wish I could tell you Took us a decade to have the courage Revealing unspoken thoughts that made our hearts and souls ravaged Both minds fed up with these sh*tty “what if’s” What if I told you I’m… Continue reading To someone I once never had and never will be

Enough

And so I said it is enough… It is enough that I made my feelings known to you…That I have opened my heart once again…That I have shown what I can offer even after my heart has been powdered to pieces. It is enough that I stretched my arms to hold your falling pieces…. that… Continue reading Enough

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up not being chosen by someone I love.

Sometimes I wonder why I ended up not being chosen by someone I love. Yung tipong hindi naman ikaw yung unang nagka-gusto, siya naman nagparamdam sa’yo pero bakit ako yung na-fall ng todo at iniwan? I always try my best to protect my heart pero siya naman yung nagpupumilit na hulihin yung mga ngiti ko,… Continue reading Sometimes I wonder why I ended up not being chosen by someone I love.

Maroon

Have you ever meet someone and the two of you just instantly click? And then you talk for a few months but now they’re gone… I have one. He’s just the best.. he’s so sweet and nice. He loves his family so much and spends time with them as much as he can during his… Continue reading Maroon

My Sin

It feels like a sin. To look into those round eyes that I have a hard time resisting. To go stiff whenever we have no other choice but to be near each other. To secretly enjoy the distant silence between us. To wish that I had more time for you to tell me about your… Continue reading My Sin

I am tired of this “okay-then-not-okay” cycle as part of the healing process.

Emotional pain affects every aspect of your life. When you are heart-broken, your physical body is unable to function properly, and your mental health suffers as well. I despise my current situation. I wish I had the ability to instantly heal myself. The healing process is bizarre. There are days when I feel fine and… Continue reading I am tired of this “okay-then-not-okay” cycle as part of the healing process.

It is painful to know someone close to you chooses to cut ties with you.

It is painful to know someone close to you chooses to cut ties with you. You were used to hanging out, updating, and going through life together, but it all came to an end. After all of the memories you’ve made together, countless whys are probably racing through your mind because of what happened. I’ve… Continue reading It is painful to know someone close to you chooses to cut ties with you.

Accept it, even if proper closure will never be given.

Since the day you left, lots of questions have bothered my mind. Did I do something wrong that made you walk away? Have I said something inappropriate that made you leave? Will you still come back to explain why? Or perhaps restore what was (I don’t know if it was) broken? As time goes by,… Continue reading Accept it, even if proper closure will never be given.

Dear heart

Dear heart, Alam ko kung gaano kabigat ang dinadala mo ngayon. Ang hirap masanay sa mga bagay na panandalian lang pala. Ang sakit iwanan ng biglaan. Sana pwede ibalik ang nakaraan at magwarning sa sarili. Alam kong dumadating na sa punto na napapadasal ka nalang na sana pwede mong i-skip yung masakit na process. Sana… Continue reading Dear heart

“You do not deserve that bare minimum treatment.”

“You do not deserve that bare minimum treatment.” That’s what I used to tell my friends because I didn’t want them to feel unworthy. They had no idea I was putting up with this kind of treatment just to keep the one I loved. Isn’t that stupid? I suppose it’s true that love is blind.… Continue reading “You do not deserve that bare minimum treatment.”

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