Boiling Waters
“Did you ever regret loving me ?” – Says he, out of nowhere. At that moment, I was caught off guard. I didn’t know what to say. I spaced out. I was there standing in front of him yet my mind was wandering elsewhere. It was the same question I Continue Reading
As a person who grew up with lack of support and attention, I crave love in any kind of form. Maybe this is why I am so drawn to those people who showed me even the tiniest bit of affection. I am always at the state of being in denial Continue Reading
Hi self, how have you been ? Life has been tough, hasn’t it ? But hey, you still managed to keep moving forward. You know, I just want to say that I am so proud of you. Although you’ve made a lot of bad decisions in life, still you were Continue Reading
My First Hi, I’m probably just like you. Wanting to express my truest self. So here I am. This is my first blog. I’ve been journaling for about a year now. Writing on things that consumes my mind at the time. Old school pen and paper. If I do Continue Reading
I admire how you stare yourself in the mirror, naked with every fresh wound yet slowly grasping the truth that you are human after all- and sometimes you are left with no choice but to face the reality that every fiber of your being is a reflection of the love Continue Reading
I have a confession to make. I witnessed your wedding without you knowing. Why? I want to gauge how I actually feel. Thank God that I did because I realized a few things. One, I can’t imagine myself getting married – I know it is unfair, knowing that you have Continue Reading
Emotional pain affects every aspect of your life. When you are heart-broken, your physical body is unable to function properly, and your mental health suffers as well. I despise my current situation. I wish I had the ability to instantly heal myself. The healing process is bizarre. There are days Continue Reading
The clock ticked. Time flew so quickly. We were sitting on a couch and all of a sudden, you ran from me…from our home. I chased you; mountains and trees barricaded the view. You went too far. I was trying to catch my breath after splinter pierced my foot—wasn’t able Continue Reading
After breakups, cool offs, hanapin-ko-lang-sarili-ko momints, and such, people around often romanticize the idea saying, “If you truly love someone, then win him/her back.” Funny how they put an intensifier ‘truly’, when in fact it meant the opposite for some. However, the truth is that the so-called comeback depends on Continue Reading
For those people who choose to trust on and on—even there were histories of betrayal that keep on haunting them in silence every single time.
Dear heart, Alam ko kung gaano kabigat ang dinadala mo ngayon. Ang hirap masanay sa mga bagay na panandalian lang pala. Ang sakit iwanan ng biglaan. Sana pwede ibalik ang nakaraan at magwarning sa sarili. Alam kong dumadating na sa punto na napapadasal ka nalang na sana pwede mong i-skip Continue Reading
Sumugal ako sa walang kaiguradohan Hindi kita sisisihin ano man ang kahihinatnan Kasi ako naman ang kusang nagmahal Iniisip na baka sa huli tayo yung ikasal Sobrang lawak lang talaga ng imahinasyon ko diba Sa sobrang lawak hindi ko na nakita ang mga pulang bandera Noon pa sana’y sinukuan na Continue Reading
Meeting you is the most extraordinary form of pure delight in regards to my life’s dictionary. I’ve waited too long for a perfect definition of love in my life to exist, and a man surprisingly came that filled all the settled standards I have made as I build myself along Continue Reading
Are you broken right now? Are you confused? Are you trying to moving on? Have you found it messy? Seems like you are always back on the square one? Feels like trap in a cycle—vicious cycle of pain, hurt, betrayal, and sadness? Looks like you are stuck to where you Continue Reading
Grieving over someone dead is indescribably tormenting. Grieving over someone alive is indescribably tormenting either. but to grieve your own death? which role do you play? the dead? or the grieving? Everyday is a struggle of which role to play — to stay dead? or grieve your own death? You Continue Reading
I came back full. I came back more alive than ever. And when I came back, I was made whole…. ………… It was the darkest times of my life when I thought I was worthy of a worthless love. I was constantly praying my way out, “out of this mystery”, Continue Reading
Sometimes, we feel like raising the white flag when life seems tough. Mistakes, heartbreaks, failures, and struggles – all these come crash landing on you making you helpless and worse, lifeless. But, have you ever thought of a silver lining in every obstacle the comes your way? Have you ever Continue Reading
Thank you for breaking me, because in this way I have realised my worth. Thank you for breaking me, because you have taught me how to love earnestly, even if this hurts me like hell. Thank you for breaking me, because I have learned how to forgive myself. Thank you Continue Reading
Sometimes, it is totally okay not to be okay. It’s okay to choose yourself. Sometimes we need to compose our self first before stepping into reconciliation. Ironically, you wanted to save the friendships, the best relationship you ever had with the most important people, yet you are still hurting. Keeping Continue Reading
Maaaring iniisip mo parin yung mga ‘sana’ at ‘what ifs’. Maaaring nanghihinayang ka pa rin sa kung ano na sana kayo ngayon. Maaaring iniisip mo pa rin yung mga panagarap na sabay ninyong binuo at mga alaala na ginawa ninyo ng magkasama. Maaaring hinahanapan mo pa rin ng mga kasagutan Continue Reading
Alam kong dalawang taon nang mahigit ang lumipas. Sana masaya ka sa naging desisyon mo. Sana, unti-unti mo nang natutupad ang mga pangarap mo; mga pangarap mo na unti-unti nating binuo. Naaalala mo ba nung tayo pa? Nung mga panahong umiiyak ka saakin dahil ang liit-liit na ng tingin mo Continue Reading
You may not be a trained counselor, but you’ll probably have someone come to you for counsel. Throughout your life, you’ll meet people who are hurting and need help. So what should you do first? Ask people about their story and listen. Set down your theological formula and simply enter into people’s pain. When Continue Reading
A Letter to His Ex Hi. I know what you’ve been going through right now. I know you’re not doing good and I am really sorry it didn’t work out for you. To be honest, I never really asked for this. I was happy on my own. I never expected Continue Reading
To the boys who almost loved me before, I thank you for coming into my life. It was indeed sad when you decided to leave, but now I’m finally able to start learning from the lessons you’ve left behind. With each hesitation, I’ve found my answers. With each uncertainty, I’m reaching a point of clarity.
I sat on a concrete pathway along the grass-filled plains as the bevy of girls played dodgeball nearby. Hearing them laughing and shouting in enjoyment, wonderful thoughts conquered my mind. A lot of “what ifs” popped out as I viewed the watery plains, the insects, and the dragonflies. After a Continue Reading
