Boiling Waters
Sa mundo ng kawalan kilala mo pa kaya ang iyong sarili. Madaming nawala sa mundo ngunit bakit ako na buhay ay parang naglaho nawala ang sarili ko. Nasaan nga ba ako? Hindi namalayan noong una akala’y isang hikbi lamang ngunit ng tumagal ay isa na palang agod ng luha. Madaming tanong Continue Reading
This past few weeks you became distant to me. I thought that you have gone through problems. Problems that you’re the one dealing for over a year. A year of sadness, anxiety and uneasiness. Those sadness and anxiety that your dealing with came to surface as you try to hide Continue Reading
To the girl I’m secretly in love with for a couple of years now, I always pray for you but I know that we’re both not ready for a commitment and we still need to grow and become a better person for each other. I witness all your hard work Continue Reading
In a labyrinth, looking for clarity. Why do I keep seeing endless scenes… of you… and I… in a honeymoon!? Does it have to appear each time I close my eyes!? Each time I take a nap?! Each time I go to sleep?! Or in the avenues of my dreams!? Continue Reading
Seasons waved “bye” without him at the table of your life. Your 🧠: Is he s t i l l alive?! Your 💓: I’ve been receiving several forms of love letters from him, haven’t you seen or felt it in your everyday life straight from the universe right before your Continue Reading
Reasons I jotted down to justify bakit nga ba hindi natatapos yung paghihintay ko. 1. Why do I like him? at first talaga is because gwapo naman talaga sya kaya nga andami ding nagkakacrush sa kanya minsan nga nahihiya nako kasi parang feeling ko nakikipagagawan pako (PRIDE IT IS haha) Continue Reading
I am tired of relationships. I am tired of the drama. I am tired of the unnecessary stress that goes with it In my four labelled relationships, I never had the chance to celebrate an anniversary. None of them lasted that long. There were days where I questioned myself: am Continue Reading
At this point, I think I’ve written you more or less 100 unsent letters. I needed an outlet for my emotions because I know I can never tell you those directly. To be honest, it’s been a long struggle for me to stay friends with you. Don’t get me wrong, Continue Reading
They say the truth will always set us free. But why the truth hurts so bad… that it almost crushed your whole being and left you broken into pieces… But I felt the beauty of brokenness… I always saw myself came running back at HIS feet… How I wish I Continue Reading
“Kaibigan kita. Pero masaya ko twing nakakausap ka. Kinikilig ako pag nagrereply ka. Naeexcite ako pag nakikita kong online ka kahit para yun sa iba. Okay lang. Kahit hndi mo man malaman tong nararamdaman ko, gagawin naman kitang inspirasyon para maayos ko yung sarili ko. Basta anjan ka lang sa Continue Reading
Siguro ngayon iniisip mo na ikaw ang may problema, ikaw ang may kakulangan, ikaw ang hindi kamahal-mahal kaya pinili ko na iwan ka, pinili ko ang bitawan ka. Cliche man at nakakainis pakinggan ang mga katagang “It’s not you it’s me” ngunit iyon ang katotohanan. Pero gusto ko lang malaman Continue Reading
Maraming relasyon ang natapos sa kadahilanang, may isa na wala nang nararamdaman, may isa na napagod na o maaaring may isa na napamahal na sa iba. May mga konkretong dahilan. Pero iba ang kuwento natin sa kanila, dahil nagsisimula pa lamang tayong bumuo ng unang pahina ay binitawan na kita. Continue Reading
I wish I met you six years later, when I have become more mature and less irrational, less emotional. Things would’ve been different. I would have made decisions differently. We would have not ended up like what we are right now; we shared memories but we’re practically strangers. Meeting you Continue Reading
“HINDI siya gwapo, pero mabait. He’s someone that i’ve been looking for.” Nagkakilala kami through chat. He messaged me after reading my comment on one of the posts of Boiling Waters on facebook. Nagsimula sa isang simpleng tanong, hanggang sa hindi inaasahang pagkakakilanlan. Napuno ng masasayang tawanan ang aming bawat Continue Reading
I’m sorry I’ve had to disappear. I’m sorry I’ve smeared our best-friendship. I’m sorry I’ve had to leave it in ruins. It was just so pure and innocent back then. The afternoon sunlight passing through the windows creates shafts of dust motes inside our highschool library while we were babbling Continue Reading
It all started when I supported you with your art, music. Everybody loves Music. Music brings people together as they say. and that’s where it all started. I Love Music in the sense that it gives me peace. and you play the music for people to be entertained. Because of Continue Reading
Ako sa’yo ay parang bulaklak. Hindi ko alam kung pupulutin mo ba ako sa sandaling makita mo akong nahulog na sa’yo… At sa huli, aasa ako na kapag nahulog ay pupulutin mo.
Everytime I Missed You “I miss you.” I hope pwedi ko ‘tong sabihin sa’yo ngayon. Sana pwedi kitang e pm at kumustahin. Ayos ka lang ba? Antagal na din nating di nag-uusap. Kumusta sa work? Nakakakain ka ba sa tamang oras? Sana inaalagaan mo ng maayos ang sarili mo. Malayo Continue Reading
I remember the time I asked you, “Sure ka na ba sa akin?” And sabi mo “Oo naman, hindi naman ako papasok sa ganito, kung hindi endpoint ang marriage” Everything was too good to be true. You pursued me even if I said no to a courtship with you. Sabi Continue Reading
I hate you. I hate you for being so dang romantic. I mostly end up drifting off into a dreamy mode and drown in my own thoughts… of you… and I… each time. Each time, I see you on screen… acting our love story. Turning our conversations into lines. Playing Continue Reading
As I am writing this post, I am scrolling through old scribbles and notes which had me recall a time where I experienced an almost relationship. It was probably the hardest breakup(in a sense with myself since we never really did have one) that I had to go through. We Continue Reading
I wonder all the things that could happen if I said yes to you at that time. I wonder if I said yes, I won’t have to feel this heart ache, I wonder if I said yes, we’ll end up saying I do and live happily ever after, I just Continue Reading
Ang hirap kapag nagkagusto ka sa matalik mong kaibigan. Pero wala ng mas mahirap kung ramdam mong parehong may gusto kyo sa isa’t-isa pero walang may lakas ng loob umamin. Paano ba namin magagawang umamin kung simula’t sapul alam namin di kmi pwede, INC sya habang ako CHRISTIAN. Same kmeng Continue Reading
Iniiibig Kong, Heathcliff, Siguro nagtataka kung bakit nakatanggap ka ng sulat mula sa akin. Wag kang magalala, nagtataka din akong umabot ako sa punto ng buhay ko na sumusulat sa iyo. Wala akong masabing tumpak at tamang rason kung bakit nagustuhan kita at minamahal na kita. Medyo korni mang pakinggan, Continue Reading
I really feel I need to share this personal experience of mine here in boiling waters. Setting my pride aside, and looking on a positive perspective, Im actually thankful na may flatform or chance na maishare ang kahit anong thoughts or experience lalo na on emotion. For me kase, I Continue Reading
Sana maghintay ka din kahit hindi para sakin. Hayaan mo lang na maghintay tayo. Pinipili kong hintayin ka kahit hindi ako sigurado, pero hayaan mo lang. Sa paghihintay ko sayo, aayusin ko ang sarili ko. Kung dumating man ang panahon na hindi talaga tayo, buo akong haharap sa taong nakalaan Continue Reading
Hey TOTGA (I actually put his name in this, I just changed it for the purpose of posting here), I hope you’re doing great. And I do hope that you won’t be able to read this. Funny it is but all I want is to express these feelings and words Continue Reading
The heaviness of 2020 is something to look back to. After months of being locked up at home, it seems my life is not the same anymore. I always caught myself feeling blue and my eyes seem in great distress. The things that I put are things that I always Continue Reading
Para sa’yo, sa taong gusto ng gusto ko, Marami akong gustong sabihin sa’yo; Una, sana ay tanggapin mo siya, Ang lahat lahat sa kanya; gaya na lamang ng bigla biglang pagtigil niya sa daan, Bigla ka nalang pagtatawanan, at ang lahat ng kaniyang kabaliwan; Pangalawa, alagaan mo siya; Madalas, matigas Continue Reading
It’s been five years since you left me for someone else; for someone I never expected to cause me so much pain. ever since that day you wanted that breakup, it has never been easy, it never has. the first 3 months were full of sleepless nights, ugly crying myself Continue Reading
