Panggap (Pretend)

Nakangiti, masaya, madaldal at madali makapalagayan ng loob. Ngunit malakas ang aking kutob. May maskara itong kausap ko. Parang walang problema sa unang tingin. Ramdam ko na malapit na siya mahulog sa bangin. Hanggang kailan niya ito ...

If ever you feel hopeless right now

It’s heavy, isn’t it? That you no longer recognize the person you’ve become and you couldn’t remember why you’re still fighting anymore. And maybe by now, you don’t know how to go back to those times when you still had love for everything y...

Irony of Life: Healing Hurts

Dear You, The memories, the people, and you. It can either make you or break you. It can help you make it through the path or can make you just give up. You know what’s the irony of life? It happens when you start making c...

The Pain of a Daughter

There I said it. I told him how I dont trust him anymore. How everyday I think of him cheating again/still. How I think everytime he is not in our house. that he might be visiting his mistress. even on mother's day. That everytime ...

Open letter to a struggling self

Dear self,  I know you’ve been struggling lately. You’re not yourself and you seemed lost in a place you’ve never been before. I know you’re wandering thru the midst of nothingness right now — unable to find the right path and wher...

A Lost Lamb

I failed an entry-level employment examination, twice this year. I started to question myself, what happened to my old self? What happened to the person that always strives hard to achieve his goals? What happened to the person that does no...

A POEM FOR THE DEVILS MOUTH

He`s just doing his best, With passion and compassion for the rest, All corners of his eyes were bloating and screaming, --An eyes who demands to sleep for its sacrificing, But, he was humilitated by the Devils mouth, ---A devil that h...

Alone. Broken. Crushed. Depressed.

Alone. Broken. Crushed. Depressed. First of all, I thank you for being honest with yourself. Thank you for letting your whole body know that there is something wrong with what you feel, there is something wrong with what you think. ...

Ang weak mo naman kung ayawan na

Hindi sinabing ikaw ito, pero kung nababasa mo ito baka ikaw nga. Ang buhay naman ay choices and chances. May mga bagay na 'di natin pinili pero nasa ating buhay. Pero malaking bahagi pa rin ng ating buhay ay pwede natin piliin. Kaya, an...

I asked the Lord “Lord, bakit?” but He didn’t answer me.

I was suicidal. I was depressed. I was lonely. I was left behind by the closest-friend I have, I have failed my classes that I spent so much time and effort studying, I have lost a friend, my families are struggling, I have no one ...

Mahirap maging ako

Mahirap maging ako. Akala nila matalino ako. Akala nila magaling ako. Akala nila malakas ako. Akala nila masaya ako. Hindi ako matalino. Hindi ako magaling. Hindi ako malakas. Hindi ako masaya. Tanga ako. Ginagawa ko lang kung ano...

Arise, my beloved!

Arise, my beloved Though winter has come And you felt you have none Remember, you have the One   Arise, my beloved Though sadness stole your youth Don't worry, soon you'll have your fruit Just let Me take care o...

Crazy Planet

The best way to get over someone is to turn her into a literature. After a month, walang nagbago. Siguro meron pero di sya noticeable. Gumagaan pakiramdam ko pero di to the point na handa na kong mamuhay ng normal. Pakiramdam ko umaasa p...

And then she goes

And she keeps on fighting even if she struggles every single time. And she breathes deeply as she questions her inner soul And she tries to understand and wanted to believe in benefit of the doubt And she is hanging in there waiting for ...

DEPRESYON

Nakakabaliw, nakakabinging katahimikan, Nakakalitong katanungan ang nasa puso’t isipan, Uhaw na uhaw sa mga kasagutan. Walang buhay, walang kulay, Buhay na punong puno na ng lumbay….   Laging nagiisip, Iniisip kung...

To the Man who was Unsure II

Dear You, I've learned a lot from what we had yesterday. You taught me grace. You taught me love. You taught me patience. You taught me hope. I've been growing because of what we had yesterday. And because of you leaving, I foun...

Di na dapat

Masama ba ako? Masama ba ako kasi nagawa ko ang di dapat? Tanga ba ako? Tanga ba ako kasi paulit-ulit kong tinatanggap and di dapat tanggapin? Bobo ba ako? Bobo ba ako kasi sa lahat ng pwedeng piliin bakit yun pa ang napili ...

Konting Tiis Pa

Isang hapon bigla ko nanaman naisip isulat Laman ng utak na basta lang nakakalat sa dami ng problema na aking dinadala di na alam kung pano mababawasan pa minsan nais kong malaman, bakit ito pinagdadaaanan inakalang ang nakar...

Dear anyone,

You may not really know much about me but that doesn't matter. What matter is how much you know about yourself. I am writing this letter for your sake because I know that you have something troubling you. You might deny it in front of ever...

Not There Yet

I am not there yet. I am just starting to pick myself up, piece by piece. I am not there yet. I can still hear some voices telling me to quit. I am still shaking because of my anxiety. I can still feel the pain of not being g...

Paglisan

Sa aking paglisan, huwag sanag isipin na ika'y aking iniiwasan. Ikaw ay aking lilisanin dahil ayaw kong lungkot iyong maranasan. Sa aking paglisan, matapang mo sanang harapin ang kinabukasan. Sa aking paglisan, damhin mo ang ganda ...

Healing is Not Linear

It’s not as straightforward as we hope it would be. It’s a roller coaster process. Some days you feel like you’re on top of the world and some days you feel like you’re right back where you started from. And when you have an uphill flow ...

Sorry, I’m Always a Failure

Sa lahat ng ninais at ginusto ko sa buhay ko, wala man lang ako natamo. I am always below of my expectations. Wala pa ata akong na-achived. From being a CPA, a spiritual leader, a good friend, daughter and siblings. Lahat palpak ako. Lahat ...

Saloobin.

Ang saloobin. Magandang araw , ok ka lang ba? kamusta ka? sana ikay ok lang. madaming akong tanung! madami akong nais malaman. mahal mo ba talaga ako o sadya ka lang napipilitan? sa bawat oras na ikay kausap , sa bawat oras na ikay n...

Who You Are In The World You need To Be Like This

We sometimes forget Who we are in the world of you need to be. Expectation sucks,Reality sucks.People tend to judge who you are in your achievement People sometimes tend to leave because of the negative things that's happening within this...

Di na natuto

Hindi effort mo ang kulang. Frustrating as it can be, it's just not you.

Makinig ka, pakiusap

Hindi isang imbentong salita hindi rin isang pagpapanggap para makawala sa mundong mapanira, Maniwala ka, Hindi ito isang pagtatago, pag sisinungaling o pag iimbento Dahil ang taong sinasabihan, tinatalikuran at inaayawan nyo ay ang ta...

WHY ME?

Madami kang tanong na bakit ikaw ang kailangang makaranas ng nanyayare sayo ngayon. Hindi mo alam kung ano yung pakiramdam mo, minsan wala ka namang problema pero hindi ka masaya. You are emotionally and mentally tired, kasi mas madaming ne...

The Truth about Pain

We all feel pain. But we all have different ways of dealing with it.   Some people overeat. Myself included. *sighs* Some oversleep. Some overspend. Some go to far away places. Some spend their time on video games. ...

I want to go back

I used to smile at every thing that I do It excites me to do something new I wish I could go back The day I first fell in love Fell deeply in love with what I do The first song that I produced Made my heart satisfied The first painting tha...