Luha sa Kandila

Naranasan mo na bang umiyak sa gabi, ilang oras bago pumatak sa alas-dose ang kamay ng orasan hudyat na malapit na ang iyong kaarawan? Marahil oo, marahil hindi. Pero ipinapadalangin ko na sana hindi mo maranasan. Ibang-iba sa nakasanaya...

KAWALAN

Paano mo nga naman sasabihin ang tunay na nararamdaman mo kung hindi sapat ang mga ito para maintindihan ka ng tao? Na sa gitna ng isang masayang araw ay tatamaan ka ng lungkot. Na hindi mo alam kung saan galing o ano nga ba ang dahilan, a...

CONFESSIONS OF A DEPRESSED CHRISTIAN

It's been more than two years. There were days where despair and anxiety would drown me slowly like in a quicksand. I couldn't get out. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't even cry. I envied those who could cry so easily because I knew the...

Paglisan

Sa aking paglisan, huwag sanag isipin na ika'y aking iniiwasan. Ikaw ay aking lilisanin dahil ayaw kong lungkot iyong maranasan. Sa aking paglisan, matapang mo sanang harapin ang kinabukasan. Sa aking paglisan, damhin mo ang ganda ...

To the Anxious

To the Anxious. I’m writing this for you. I know you, you are this vibrant soul and everyone knows you are this happy person. You are always the encourager, yet right now you wanted to be encouraged. How are you love? Perhaps, you...

It’s okay to Pause

The most courageous thing I have ever done was continuing to live when I wanted to die. Hitting rock bottom doesn't mean you have to stay there. It's okay to pause. But once you survive, there are very few things in life that can scare you....

AN OPEN LETTER TO GOD, I WANNA GO HOME.

Dear God,   Abba Father, It’s been a while. I am so sorry that whenever I write a letter to you, I’m always in despair. I’ve been avoiding you these days. It’s so hard to open my mouth and talk to you even though I know talking t...

WHY ME?

Madami kang tanong na bakit ikaw ang kailangang makaranas ng nanyayare sayo ngayon. Hindi mo alam kung ano yung pakiramdam mo, minsan wala ka namang problema pero hindi ka masaya. You are emotionally and mentally tired, kasi mas madaming ne...

Irony of Life: Healing Hurts

Dear You, The memories, the people, and you. It can either make you or break you. It can help you make it through the path or can make you just give up. You know what’s the irony of life? It happens when you start making c...

“Mapagmahal pero mapanghusga”

Ako yung taong puro salita sabi nga nila Pero hindi nila alam na lahat ng aking ginagawa ay para sa kanila, Dahil ang mga nagsasabi nito ay ang aking pamilya Yung malaya kana man pero bakit parang nakakulong ka   Nakakul...

Messenger Tragedy

Naka-offline ka, pero in another call ka... ay kaya pala online din siya... ... is in another call.Recording Voicemail.... missed your call. Alam ko na kung bakit,Paulit-ulit,lagi kong pinipilitpero bakit ang sakit? ...Kung buhay pa sigur...

If ever you feel hopeless right now

It’s heavy, isn’t it? That you no longer recognize the person you’ve become and you couldn’t remember why you’re still fighting anymore. And maybe by now, you don’t know how to go back to those times when you still had love for everything y...

They are worst

Why do I need to feel belittle? Is it because I can't have what I want? When everybody can do. He/She make this thing, He/She earn this stuff, He/She able to get this on fast, He/She can say everything, to anyone, to every shit. Ne...

Gusto ko na lang maging MAHINA

Dumating ka na din ba sa part ng buhay mo Na you doubt your worth? You started to question yourself. Why not? Why not me? I'm not that good enough? I'm not that worthy to be the one? Sabi nila you deserve better Pero...

How people are helping me with my depression

I have been thinking to share this in public, but I don't know when to start. I love writing as it is my way of expressing my thoughts and my emotions and I somehow want the world to know what is happening inside my mind. And to think that ...

I am afraid, but I will brave my heart to continue.

Dear frightened heart,I know you wanted to continue loving but you are afraid to be hurt. I know you're ready, but the fear is still there. Be brave to fall in love with beautiful places, with beautiful people, and with moments. Fall in...

The Truth about Pain

We all feel pain. But we all have different ways of dealing with it.   Some people overeat. Myself included. *sighs* Some oversleep. Some overspend. Some go to far away places. Some spend their time on video games. ...

I asked the Lord “Lord, bakit?” but He didn’t answer me.

I was suicidal. I was depressed. I was lonely. I was left behind by the closest-friend I have, I have failed my classes that I spent so much time and effort studying, I have lost a friend, my families are struggling, I have no one ...

How Can I forgive If I Can’t Forget?

I keep asking myself what is wrong with me? Why I can't forgivr and forget? Am I on a right track? 2018 has been the year of this shit which I cannot force myself to forget him and forgive what he has done to me. Some people told me that it...

Heal 💚

Minsan, nakakalimutan ko na kung ano nga ba ang tunay na kahulugan ng kaligayahan, dahil matagal tagal na rin mula ng huli ko itong maramdaman. Hinayaan kong ang sarili ko'y balutin ng kalungkutan at malunod sa sarili kong mga insecurities....

Bakit Ako Ang Nagbabayad?

Sa lahat ng pusong na-ghost mo Sa lahat ng pusong pinaasa mo Sa lahat ng matatamis sa salitang binitawan mo Sa lahat pusong dinurog mo Sa lahat ng pusong tumigas nang dahil sa'yo Sa lahat ng matang pinaluha mo Sa lahat ng hindi na nan...

I Am Worthy.

These days, the universe gave me so much to think about. My emotions and passion was entangling between my dreams and career, with this inner me who always think as a less worthy. I love what I am doing right now, but sadly a little ins...

SADNESS

She stayed until past midnight, visited her for almost two years and no one knows when it will stop. Actually it stopped before but came back from its grave. It comes with a creepy sound, telling her that she has never been enough, she's ...

Secret Identity

In many instances & situations, I want to go back in time, rewind my life, go fix & change things in the past to make a difference in the present, stop or prevent any negative, unnecessary & nullifying aftermaths. But the realit...

Ang weak mo naman kung ayawan na

Hindi sinabing ikaw ito, pero kung nababasa mo ito baka ikaw nga. Ang buhay naman ay choices and chances. May mga bagay na 'di natin pinili pero nasa ating buhay. Pero malaking bahagi pa rin ng ating buhay ay pwede natin piliin. Kaya, an...

Anong nangyari sa TAYO?

Pinaramdam mo sakin ang pagmamahal na walang katulad nung ikaw pa ay akin. Ni minsan hindi pumasok sa utak ko na kaya mo kong iwan. Naging kampante ako sa salitang “Hindi kita kayang iwan.” Masakit palang maiwan. Masakit palang mawalan. ...

Dear You with a Brave Heart

Dear You, Being brave and strong is a tough job. Sometimes you would want to breakdown but you can’t. Because someone’s relying on you. Sometimes you want people to see you vulnerable but they don’t seem to notice. Because they think th...

Mahirap maging ako

Mahirap maging ako. Akala nila matalino ako. Akala nila magaling ako. Akala nila malakas ako. Akala nila masaya ako. Hindi ako matalino. Hindi ako magaling. Hindi ako malakas. Hindi ako masaya. Tanga ako. Ginagawa ko lang kung ano...

A Living Eulogy for Me

Deaar You, If there's one thing that I'd like to tell you, it would be: "Choose to love." You may find it absurd but yes, choose to love. You never go wrong when you love like Him. Choose to love after all the painful memories...

To the Person Who Feels Tired and Empty

This is to you who has a battle that only himself knows. You may be feeling like you're about to give up, don't. The air you are breathing is one of the proofs that there's still hope, hope in Him who created this universe.   This is...