Shallow Mind vs Reality Depth

Dear friends, Mental Health Awareness is for people’s consciousness to reach out those who are in need and remove the stigma, not for you to impose that you are mentally broken. It is for people who are suffering, to know that someone is...

Lost

Im lost. I don't know what kind of sin I've done in my past life to suffer in my present life. Bakit ako? Bakit akong hindi marunong bumitaw at marunong lumaban ang nahihirapan? Bakit akong niloko ginago pinagpalit at itinapong parang basur...

alaala ng kahapon

Sa araw na ito, nakapagdesisyon na ako. Hindi ko na rin kaya. Balang araw, maiintindihan din ako ng nakararami. Balang araw, maiintindihan na rin nila ang nararamdaman ko. Simula sa araw na ito, sana ako naman ang pakinggan nila. Alam ko...

Panggap (Pretend)

Nakangiti, masaya, madaldal at madali makapalagayan ng loob. Ngunit malakas ang aking kutob. May maskara itong kausap ko. Parang walang problema sa unang tingin. Ramdam ko na malapit na siya mahulog sa bangin. Hanggang kailan niya ito ...

Sorry, I’m Always a Failure

Sa lahat ng ninais at ginusto ko sa buhay ko, wala man lang ako natamo. I am always below of my expectations. Wala pa ata akong na-achived. From being a CPA, a spiritual leader, a good friend, daughter and siblings. Lahat palpak ako. Lahat ...

Healing is Not Linear

It’s not as straightforward as we hope it would be. It’s a roller coaster process. Some days you feel like you’re on top of the world and some days you feel like you’re right back where you started from. And when you have an uphill flow ...

My struggle with depression

Hi. As much as I want to keep this to myself, I want to share it with you just so you know how someone with depression really go through. I had depression for the longest time, 3 years and ended just last year. God won the battle for me. Bu...

Wag Kang Hihinto

'Wag kang hihinto, Alam kong nasanay ka na sa bigat nitong mundo, na ang lindol ay nagsilbi bilang pampatulog mo, at ang bagyo ay tila hangin na lang na kumikiliti sa 'yong mga buto. Pero, 'wag kang hihinto. Alam kong alingawngaw ng ...

If ever you feel hopeless right now

It’s heavy, isn’t it? That you no longer recognize the person you’ve become and you couldn’t remember why you’re still fighting anymore. And maybe by now, you don’t know how to go back to those times when you still had love for everything y...

Crazy Planet

The best way to get over someone is to turn her into a literature. After a month, walang nagbago. Siguro meron pero di sya noticeable. Gumagaan pakiramdam ko pero di to the point na handa na kong mamuhay ng normal. Pakiramdam ko umaasa p...

Nothing, empty and bare..

Dark and empty spaces where you wait, Endlessly gives you sadness and fear... Light will shine upon you, that'll lead your path To either life or death itself... Random thoughts of darkness, Crypting through your thoughts... Con...

you broke me, i said sorry

You broke me and i’m still hoping that one day you’ll fix me. You broke me and I said sorry. Nagmumukha na talaga akong tanga kakahintay sa wala. Wala na ba talaga? Bakit nasasaktan ka parin? Nasasaktan ka ba dahil pinili mo siya? Nasasa...

Heal 💚

Minsan, nakakalimutan ko na kung ano nga ba ang tunay na kahulugan ng kaligayahan, dahil matagal tagal na rin mula ng huli ko itong maramdaman. Hinayaan kong ang sarili ko'y balutin ng kalungkutan at malunod sa sarili kong mga insecurities....

A Lost Lamb

I failed an entry-level employment examination, twice this year. I started to question myself, what happened to my old self? What happened to the person that always strives hard to achieve his goals? What happened to the person that does no...

I’m glad you knocked.

I recall every bit of it: Every tear drop. Every desperate cry. Every cutting attempt. Every lie that defined my being. The bitterness that no one and nothing can sugarcoat. The hatred I felt towards every cheerful person I met. ...

To the Person Who Feels Tired and Empty

This is to you who has a battle that only himself knows. You may be feeling like you're about to give up, don't. The air you are breathing is one of the proofs that there's still hope, hope in Him who created this universe.   This is...

Kamusta ako?

Sa kwarto, kung saan madalas ako'y nag uubos ng oras at napaparito Tila ang dilim ang aking naging sandalan kung paano ko nilampasan ang unang kabanata ng aking panimulang tula. Sa pangawalang pagkakataon natuto na akong kumain ng lungkot...

Arise, my beloved!

Arise, my beloved Though winter has come And you felt you have none Remember, you have the One   Arise, my beloved Though sadness stole your youth Don't worry, soon you'll have your fruit Just let Me take care o...

Anong nangyari sa TAYO?

Pinaramdam mo sakin ang pagmamahal na walang katulad nung ikaw pa ay akin. Ni minsan hindi pumasok sa utak ko na kaya mo kong iwan. Naging kampante ako sa salitang “Hindi kita kayang iwan.” Masakit palang maiwan. Masakit palang mawalan. ...

THE BATTLE

I thought depression is not real, I mean I have friends who suffer this kind of mental illness but I always think that it’s “only” a battle of your mind and on how you will deal with it. EASY. EASY FOR ME. I thought you can “easily” esca...

End

I was afraid that I can't make it. I am tired of faking all of it. I was so happy now and later I feel empty I feel broken from the inside yet I try to make it I am sad, Yes but I try to make sense out of nothing. I wanna cry out loud but ...

CONFESSIONS OF A DEPRESSED CHRISTIAN

It's been more than two years. There were days where despair and anxiety would drown me slowly like in a quicksand. I couldn't get out. I didn't know what to do. I couldn't even cry. I envied those who could cry so easily because I knew the...

Not There Yet

I am not there yet. I am just starting to pick myself up, piece by piece. I am not there yet. I can still hear some voices telling me to quit. I am still shaking because of my anxiety. I can still feel the pain of not being g...

How Can I forgive If I Can’t Forget?

I keep asking myself what is wrong with me? Why I can't forgivr and forget? Am I on a right track? 2018 has been the year of this shit which I cannot force myself to forget him and forgive what he has done to me. Some people told me that it...

Kapag Madilim Ang Ulap

"Kapag madilim ang ulap" Naaalala ko pa rin ang sandali. Na napakadilim ng mga ulap. Walang gustong kumilala. Walang gustong mangusap. Ano nga ba ang meron ako? Bakit parang lahat ng tao ayaw sa akin? Bakit nila ako gustong saktan? ...

Crippled

Crippled Suddenly you're there again, in that situation, in that loneliness you escaped a long time ago. It's creeping. It snuck into you like a thief in the night while you're fast asleep. Without a notice, without a warning. You ju...

Suicide, Depression and the Great Commission

First of all, I would like to say sorry. I am one of the people who didn’t even think about killing myself and I honestly laughed about people who suffered from depression. I have this habit of imagining myself as a psychiatrist and labe...

Nakalimutan ko, Mahal Niya pala Ako

  Ako ay parang isang kandilang nauupos, pag-asa ko ay unti unting nauubos. Parang kandila, liwanag ko'y unti unting dumidilim, humihina, paligid ko ay di ko na halos makita. Nasaan na ang apoy na sa aking mata noo'y nakikita? Ano nga...

Fight the good fight.

To  everyone, in the midst of struggle. I may not know what kind of struggle you are facing right now, what kind of disappointment and failure you're experiencing right now and the reasons behind your sufferings, but let me just tell thi...

She Needs You

She cried for help. But no one noticed. She smiled. She said she’s okay. Everyone believed that she’s fighting. But she was alone in the dark. Nobody tried to listen to her. She tried to be positive around people she loves. She kept t...
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