I thought I love you because you were the exact person I’ve been praying for. You are kind, nice and gentle. You are a good and wonderful person. I love talking to you because you are a good listener. You make me feel seen and heard. You open doors for me but more than anything… Continue reading It was not love, it was an idea of what love feels like.
Category: Move On
Hollow-Win
Para sa’yong hanggang ngayo’y pilit pa ring pinupunan ang puwang… Sumisid na naman ang buwan sa kalaliman At pilit ko pa ring pinapaalala sa sarili ko: Ibulong mo sa kaniyang palayain niyo na ang sarili n’yong mga multo Para hindi na kayo magkagulo Hindi na kayo magkaroon ng pagpaparamdam pagkatapos ay pareho kayong matatakot Matatakot… Continue reading Hollow-Win
How hard it is to let Go
I am counting the days and trusting the process. Here I am, believing that one day, in time, I will forget you and the feeling of loving you. 🤍✨💔 Believing that one day – I will get tired of checking on you. Believing that in due time, my heart will get tired on hoping that… Continue reading How hard it is to let Go
Accept it, even if proper closure will never be given.
Since the day you left, lots of questions have bothered my mind. Did I do something wrong that made you walk away? Have I said something inappropriate that made you leave? Will you still come back to explain why? Or perhaps restore what was (I don’t know if it was) broken? As time goes by,… Continue reading Accept it, even if proper closure will never be given.
Sa taong minsan kong naging paborito: Ito ang aking Huling Paalam
Ito nanaman, dinadaan sa sulat ang mga nararamdaman. Kahit pa sa bawat paglapat ng aking mga kamay sa aking telepono na limang taon ko na ring hawak, ay parang inaasinan muli ang mga sugat. Masakit, mahapdi, at mapait. Pero alam ko na ito ang kailangan para sa wakas ako na ay mamulat. Ang alat, ganito pala… Continue reading Sa taong minsan kong naging paborito: Ito ang aking Huling Paalam
To My Almost-Life Partner
Almost a year ago today, we met through an incident and you were my “savior” and “security.” Big words that clouded my mind, as the days and months passed by overwhelmed with your love, care, and support. Although from the start, I knew you have all the red flags that are non-negotiable for me, yet,… Continue reading To My Almost-Life Partner
Shattered Glass
Maybe it’s for the best that we never settle for less. The amount of time we spend together will not tell if we last forever. It may fade over a night or lose in just one snap. We cannot tell what will happen tomorrow. I tried to hold back but there are things that… Continue reading Shattered Glass
Your Existence Alone
Dearest Y, I sincerely apologize for my five years of infatuation and persistency that made you uncomfortable. You might not know this but your existence alone played a big part of where and who I am now, thank you so much for that. You and your achievements were my motivation to find a good job… Continue reading Your Existence Alone
“friEnd”
Sometimes I’ve been thinking of those “what ifs” that could possibly happen when you came to my life. What if we still go out together? what if I let my world revolve around you? what if I fell inlove with you? what if?! What we had… Continue reading “friEnd”
“You do not deserve that bare minimum treatment.”
“You do not deserve that bare minimum treatment.” That’s what I used to tell my friends because I didn’t want them to feel unworthy. They had no idea I was putting up with this kind of treatment just to keep the one I loved. Isn’t that stupid? I suppose it’s true that love is blind.… Continue reading “You do not deserve that bare minimum treatment.”
The silent and unexplained goodbyes are the most painful.
I never imagined I’d reach this point where I was once again left unprepared by someone. We’ve been hanging out a lot; we go to places I’ve never been to. We used to spend a lot of time talking over coffee. We began to memorize our favorites, including our coffee order, favorite food, song, and… Continue reading The silent and unexplained goodbyes are the most painful.
To Someone That I Used to Know
I can still remember the day we first met. It feels like we’ve known each other for so long. Those laughs, talks and looks that made me feel like I dont know sadness at all. In short, you never made me feel alone. You show me how beautiful life is despite the reality of how… Continue reading To Someone That I Used to Know
Letting Go With Hope
I hope… She will love you patiently when your life gets tough She will love you kindly when your day is rough I hope… She will protect you and not to make you cry She will hold your hand tighter when things don’t go right I hope… She will take care of you more when… Continue reading Letting Go With Hope
Friday Nights
Friday nights, it wouldn’t be the same as before. Yet, the lessons that you impart remain inside my heart.
LIMANG ARAW NA PAGKAKAIBIGAN
Isa akong call center agent, trabaho kong umalalay sa mga tao lalo na pag nangangailangan ng tulong o gabay. Pero sa naranasan ko, tila di lang natatapos sa pagtanggalng headset ang trabaho ko. Nagsimula ang lahat sa lunes, araw na lumipat ako ng upuan. Di inakalang magiging comportable sa isa’t isa. Tawanan dito, tawanan doon.… Continue reading LIMANG ARAW NA PAGKAKAIBIGAN
IT WAS NOT LOVE
It took me years to realize that it was not love, I was just lost and seeking on the process I told myself that maybe in another season of our lives You could love me the way I thought I was That is why I waited I was fighting for that kind of love That… Continue reading IT WAS NOT LOVE
Dear Mr. Sky part two
Since the day I’ve learned about my feelings for you, I started doing things I thought you’d appreciate. All of those went unnoticed. I still tried, I can’t lose what I don’t have, so why not try, right? I’m mistaken, I can’t lose you, but I lost myself. After several failed attempts, I stopped showing… Continue reading Dear Mr. Sky part two
Daze and confused
Was it Love? Or was I lonesome? And you were the only one available. Maybe it wasn’t forever as I thought it was. I was lost and drowning in the abyss of the ocean You just happened to be there. You rescued me. Sheltered me Maybe I was longing for affection. And you… Continue reading Daze and confused
Broken-trusted
You knew I don’t give up my trust so easily You knew it was something I held close to my heart You knew my fears, my thoughts, my woes and my worries So I trusted you Because I don’t feel like running away anymore Because I want to stay this time I want to hang… Continue reading Broken-trusted
It was really my choice
It was really my choice… My choice to entertain you… My choice to give you a chance… My choice to not be afraid of falling in love… My choice to give my everything to you… My choice to love you more than I have ever loved my friends, family and even God. My choice to… Continue reading It was really my choice
짝사랑 jjak sarang
Regrets? No, I don’t have any regrets knowing you. In fact I am so grateful I got to know you. Thank you is an understatement for all the things you did for me. Nevertheless, thank you. For always being there whenever or wherever I need your help. For all the things you taught me, from… Continue reading 짝사랑 jjak sarang
Even When It’s Not The Same Anymore
I looked up to the sky painted in colors but it’s not the same anymore. I visited my favorite place but I feel there’s a void which I ignore. I ordered my most love food but it doesn’t taste like before. I played the song that top in my playlist but it makes me sad… Continue reading Even When It’s Not The Same Anymore
Dear Mr. Sky
I don’t know when it all started. I see you as someone different from the rest. I started daydreaming about us. About the possibility of an us. My young heart hoped. But because of life, I set everything aside. I have my priorities and I really need to put my feelings for you on hold.… Continue reading Dear Mr. Sky
Pano Naman Ako
Nang dumating siya sa buhay mo, nakalimutan mo ako.
Nang mawala siya sa buhay mo, naalala mo ako.
Kagabi ako pa yung kausap mo, ngayon siya na ang pinagpupuyatan mo.
Let it go!
Meeting you was a faith Becoming your friend was a choice But falling in love with you is beyond my control Yet, this time, letting you go is a painful decision Now, tell me How can I let go of the person I truly love? How can I let you go if every time I… Continue reading Let it go!
BACK THEN
I was having a good life BACK THEN I don’t have any problem being alone I can do whatever I want, I can go wherever I want I can decide on my own, I don’t need anybody to depend on I can drink and enjoy the coffee I made for myself I am enjoying the… Continue reading BACK THEN
Going forward from a one-sided love
I never thought that I’ll ever be in a one-sided love story. Now, I realize how it hurts to love someone that will never reciprocate the same feelings you have. It was a short-lived memory that I consider to be more of a dream. A dream that I need to wake up from and face… Continue reading Going forward from a one-sided love
To The Love I Had To Let Go..
To the love I had to let go, I do not want to assume that you are okay but I am wishing you well. Ang dami na nating pinagdaanan, pagguho at pagkabuo, pagkadapa at pagbangon, pagkabigo at pagsubok muli, kaya siguro palagi kitang gusting kumustahin kapag gusto ko na sumuko. Hindi ko man lang nasabi… Continue reading To The Love I Had To Let Go..
Mark Antony,
Nasaktan ako… When word came to me na gusto mo raw ako, noong kunumbinsi ako ng kaibigan ko na okay ka naman daw, noong shini-ship tayo ng friends mo, noong nagpakita ka ng affection in your subtle words and actions. Inisip kong gusto mo talaga ako, umasa akong ipu-pursue mo ako, only to find out… Continue reading Mark Antony,
A Letter of Gratitude
A Letter of Gratitude By Cla Thank you for the time you spent with me. Thank you for letting me know that I’m worth loving. Thank you for giving me the chance to prove that I’m faithful. Thank you for everything you do to make me feel your love. That’s me long before I realized… Continue reading A Letter of Gratitude