Crazy Planet

The best way to get over someone is to turn her into a literature. After a month, walang nagbago. Siguro meron pero di sya noticeable. Gumagaan pakiramdam ko pero di to the point na handa na kong mamuhay ng normal. Pakiramdam ko umaasa p...

My struggle with depression

Hi. As much as I want to keep this to myself, I want to share it with you just so you know how someone with depression really go through. I had depression for the longest time, 3 years and ended just last year. God won the battle for me. Bu...

you broke me, i said sorry

You broke me and i’m still hoping that one day you’ll fix me. You broke me and I said sorry. Nagmumukha na talaga akong tanga kakahintay sa wala. Wala na ba talaga? Bakit nasasaktan ka parin? Nasasaktan ka ba dahil pinili mo siya? Nasasa...

Isipin mo ko pag wala na ko.

Lage lang akong nandito yun ang sabi ko sayo dati. Lage kitang tutulungan sa mga bagay na di mo makakayanan mag isa. Lage kita papatnubayan sa mga gabing ikaw ay nag iisa. Hindi madaling maging ako. Kahit kailan hindi naging madaling matalo...

Anong nangyari sa TAYO?

Pinaramdam mo sakin ang pagmamahal na walang katulad nung ikaw pa ay akin. Ni minsan hindi pumasok sa utak ko na kaya mo kong iwan. Naging kampante ako sa salitang “Hindi kita kayang iwan.” Masakit palang maiwan. Masakit palang mawalan. ...

Healing is Not Linear

It’s not as straightforward as we hope it would be. It’s a roller coaster process. Some days you feel like you’re on top of the world and some days you feel like you’re right back where you started from. And when you have an uphill flow ...

Kamusta ako?

Sa kwarto, kung saan madalas ako'y nag uubos ng oras at napaparito Tila ang dilim ang aking naging sandalan kung paano ko nilampasan ang unang kabanata ng aking panimulang tula. Sa pangawalang pagkakataon natuto na akong kumain ng lungkot...

Ang weak mo naman kung ayawan na

Hindi sinabing ikaw ito, pero kung nababasa mo ito baka ikaw nga. Ang buhay naman ay choices and chances. May mga bagay na 'di natin pinili pero nasa ating buhay. Pero malaking bahagi pa rin ng ating buhay ay pwede natin piliin. Kaya, an...

Paglisan

Sa aking paglisan, huwag sanag isipin na ika'y aking iniiwasan. Ikaw ay aking lilisanin dahil ayaw kong lungkot iyong maranasan. Sa aking paglisan, matapang mo sanang harapin ang kinabukasan. Sa aking paglisan, damhin mo ang ganda ...

Heal 💚

Minsan, nakakalimutan ko na kung ano nga ba ang tunay na kahulugan ng kaligayahan, dahil matagal tagal na rin mula ng huli ko itong maramdaman. Hinayaan kong ang sarili ko'y balutin ng kalungkutan at malunod sa sarili kong mga insecurities....

THE BATTLE

I thought depression is not real, I mean I have friends who suffer this kind of mental illness but I always think that it’s “only” a battle of your mind and on how you will deal with it. EASY. EASY FOR ME. I thought you can “easily” esca...

No Holds Barred

I don’t need a doctor or should I say..a psychiatrist? --to tell me I’m depressed. I don’t want to lie to myself anymore. I have fallen in this black hole  and sadly up until now I don’t know how to crawl back to light. How? How do I get ...

Arise, my beloved!

Arise, my beloved Though winter has come And you felt you have none Remember, you have the One   Arise, my beloved Though sadness stole your youth Don't worry, soon you'll have your fruit Just let Me take care o...

My Lonely

Let me introduce you to my lonely Hey this is my lonely It chooses no time nor place It chooses no memories nor pain It doesn’t matter if it’s 2am or not Sometimes my lonely visits me even when the sun is still brightly shini...

Secret Identity

In many instances & situations, I want to go back in time, rewind my life, go fix & change things in the past to make a difference in the present, stop or prevent any negative, unnecessary & nullifying aftermaths. But the realit...

WHY ME?

Madami kang tanong na bakit ikaw ang kailangang makaranas ng nanyayare sayo ngayon. Hindi mo alam kung ano yung pakiramdam mo, minsan wala ka namang problema pero hindi ka masaya. You are emotionally and mentally tired, kasi mas madaming ne...

Not There Yet

I am not there yet. I am just starting to pick myself up, piece by piece. I am not there yet. I can still hear some voices telling me to quit. I am still shaking because of my anxiety. I can still feel the pain of not being g...

Alam ko, mahirap. Mahirap talaga.

Ngayon lang yan. Kung masaya ka, sulitin mo. Kung nahihirapan ka, tiyagain mo. Lahat naman yan lilipas. Mahirap kung mahirap, mahirap talaga! Pero kakasubok mo, kakalaban mo, kakapalag mo, Magugulat ka nalang nagawa mo...

How Can I forgive If I Can’t Forget?

I keep asking myself what is wrong with me? Why I can't forgivr and forget? Am I on a right track? 2018 has been the year of this shit which I cannot force myself to forget him and forgive what he has done to me. Some people told me that it...

Theme from Conversations with Fire

“Why is it that this sadness seemed everlasting?” I asked. “Even though I have been an entity that existed since the beginning of time, I’m afraid that I don’t hold all the answers in this universe, my dear.” Death answered. I let out...

Note to Self: I can!

A lot of us, admit it or not, are letting ourselves be overpowered by negativity. I myself have a lot of regrets in my entire life, I regret those times which I should’ve done something I really wanted but I doubted myself and lacked confid...

Suicide, Depression and the Great Commission

First of all, I would like to say sorry. I am one of the people who didn’t even think about killing myself and I honestly laughed about people who suffered from depression. I have this habit of imagining myself as a psychiatrist and labe...

I’m glad you knocked.

I recall every bit of it: Every tear drop. Every desperate cry. Every cutting attempt. Every lie that defined my being. The bitterness that no one and nothing can sugarcoat. The hatred I felt towards every cheerful person I met. ...

The Reality Of What We Thought As Delusion

Depression is real and it has an impact on someone's way of living. We cannot deny the fact that depression is one of the serious matters this era's facing. Some might think it's just a mind over matter thing, but sadly no; it has a deep...

I asked the Lord “Lord, bakit?” but He didn’t answer me.

I was suicidal. I was depressed. I was lonely. I was left behind by the closest-friend I have, I have failed my classes that I spent so much time and effort studying, I have lost a friend, my families are struggling, I have no one ...

Malayang Taludturan ng Walang Katuturan

Hanggang kailan ako magiintay na kumalma ang pusong puno ng pangamba Kailan mapapatahimik ang utak Kailan maidurugtong ang napatid na dulo ng pisi Sinu ang lalapit para magtanong kung napapano Sana lahat, pero bilang sa mga daliri ang m...

alaala ng kahapon

Sa araw na ito, nakapagdesisyon na ako. Hindi ko na rin kaya. Balang araw, maiintindihan din ako ng nakararami. Balang araw, maiintindihan na rin nila ang nararamdaman ko. Simula sa araw na ito, sana ako naman ang pakinggan nila. Alam ko...

Anino ko

Anino ko san tayo ngaun tutungo? Pagud kana ba? dahil ako malapit na. Wag ka munang lumisan, wag naman akung iwanan. Kung sakaling ikaw ay aalis, wag naman sana please. Sawa na ako, lage nalang ganito di ko alam san tutungo m...

Crippled

Crippled Suddenly you're there again, in that situation, in that loneliness you escaped a long time ago. It's creeping. It snuck into you like a thief in the night while you're fast asleep. Without a notice, without a warning. You ju...

Nakalimutan ko, Mahal Niya pala Ako

  Ako ay parang isang kandilang nauupos, pag-asa ko ay unti unting nauubos. Parang kandila, liwanag ko'y unti unting dumidilim, humihina, paligid ko ay di ko na halos makita. Nasaan na ang apoy na sa aking mata noo'y nakikita? Ano nga...