Categories Depression

“I Feel Alone”

I feel alone It feels like my feelings are being torn Thinking everything is so hard Depending my life on a piece of card No pleasure in eating And either in sleeping I used to eat a lot I even fall asleep before knowing the movie’s plot Can’t feel the Continue Reading

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SADNESS MAKES ME WEAK

Sadness, loneliness, hopeless and worthless. I’m dealing with it without anyone’s knowing. I try to push away the people who mattered to me.. I forced myself to fight the sadness alone despite the hardship.. Crying in the four corner of the dark room thinking no one cares.. Scared to tell Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Di na natuto

Hindi effort mo ang kulang. Frustrating as it can be, it’s just not you.

Categories Depression

Isolation

It came to me again, the defeat of falling into temptation Chains of guilt that will wipe out the things that you’re once sure of. From being loved to being nothing, meaningless and unworthy, Left the confidence of salvation, thinking that I’m the hopeless of them all and maybe it’s Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Sept. 9 1:43 am

When my mood suddenly change that doesn’t mean that I want to be notice, perhaps you said something insensitively and that hurt me. When I rant about what I am feeling it’s not because I want to be notice, maybe all my feelings that’s been bottled inside overpowered my sense Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Short-Term Memory Loss

Ever experienced a short-term memory loss and suddenly remembers it few days after in a conversation with someone bringing it up like you’re some sort of psychopathic ass ruining the topic? Funny how forgetful I became in such a short period of time. Maybe it’s due to lots of thoughts Continue Reading

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Questioning Sanity

As the rain pours down, rattling sounds on the ground. I asked, what has this life been into? Just lost in the middle of nowhere. Trying to seek the right place, doubts fill in. Like a piece of paper cramped by thy own hands. It’s nobody’s fault. This life was Continue Reading

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Rant

Hindi ko alam kung paano uumpisahan. Ang alam ko lang, I want to vent out. Sa dami ng bashers ko kasi napaka-emo ko daw, hindi ko na alam saan ako lulugar. Malungkot. Masama loob. Yan ang nararamdaman ko. Pero hindi pwede magpost basta basta. I-contain ang nararamdaman kumbaga. Dahil isang Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Sorry, I’m Always a Failure

Sa lahat ng ninais at ginusto ko sa buhay ko, wala man lang ako natamo. I am always below of my expectations. Wala pa ata akong na-achived. From being a CPA, a spiritual leader, a good friend, daughter and siblings. Lahat palpak ako. Lahat laging failure. Minsan, ayoko na mabuhay, Continue Reading

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DEPRESYON

Nakakabaliw, nakakabinging katahimikan, Nakakalitong katanungan ang nasa puso’t isipan, Uhaw na uhaw sa mga kasagutan. Walang buhay, walang kulay, Buhay na punong puno na ng lumbay….   Laging nagiisip, Iniisip kung karapat dapat pa ba akong mabuhay dito sa mundo, Iniisip kung bakit ko nararanasan ang lahat ng ito, Marami, Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Pain Took It Away

I thought it was impossible. To feel nothing at all. Until it hit me. Six years of being single gave me a lot of time to think and save all the love that I could give to the right person who will finally be worthy of it. Then this guy Continue Reading

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Soon You’ll Get Better

I was listening to Taylor Swift’s Soon You’ll Get Better and as I ponder its words, I realized, this song is for me. If you haven’t heard the song, please do take time to do so. According to Taylor, it’s for her mom. But as a listener, I know it was Continue Reading

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If ever you feel hopeless right now

It’s heavy, isn’t it? That you no longer recognize the person you’ve become and you couldn’t remember why you’re still fighting anymore. And maybe by now, you don’t know how to go back to those times when you still had love for everything you do because you think you don’t Continue Reading

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Nothing, empty and bare..

Dark and empty spaces where you wait, Endlessly gives you sadness and fear… Light will shine upon you, that’ll lead your path To either life or death itself… Random thoughts of darkness, Crypting through your thoughts… Consuming your mind, Eating you alive.. Nothing, empty and bare..

Categories Depression

A Lost Lamb

I failed an entry-level employment examination, twice this year. I started to question myself, what happened to my old self? What happened to the person that always strives hard to achieve his goals? What happened to the person that does not give up no matter how perilous and dangerous it Continue Reading

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STOP!

Stop spending your time too much on pleasing people. Stop caring too much about other’s opinion. Stop making nonsense judgement to yourself. Stop. Just stop. It doesn’t help. It doesn’t make your situation any better. The most cruel thing we do is when we degrade ouar own worth. We feel Continue Reading

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Alone. Broken. Crushed. Depressed.

Alone. Broken. Crushed. Depressed. First of all, I thank you for being honest with yourself. Thank you for letting your whole body know that there is something wrong with what you feel, there is something wrong with what you think. Oh dear, no one is exempted to that feeling. Every Continue Reading

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To the Anxious

To the Anxious. I’m writing this for you. I know you, you are this vibrant soul and everyone knows you are this happy person. You are always the encourager, yet right now you wanted to be encouraged. How are you love? Perhaps, you are this person who’s battling this alone Continue Reading

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Wag Kang Hihinto

‘Wag kang hihinto, Alam kong nasanay ka na sa bigat nitong mundo, na ang lindol ay nagsilbi bilang pampatulog mo, at ang bagyo ay tila hangin na lang na kumikiliti sa ‘yong mga buto. Pero, ‘wag kang hihinto. Alam kong alingawngaw ng problema ay sinira na ang pandinig mo, pero Continue Reading

Categories Adulting

To the Man who was Unsure II

Dear You, I’ve learned a lot from what we had yesterday. You taught me grace. You taught me love. You taught me patience. You taught me hope. I’ve been growing because of what we had yesterday. And because of you leaving, I found more of myself. I found my strengths, Continue Reading

Categories Adulting

A Living Eulogy for Me

Deaar You, If there’s one thing that I’d like to tell you, it would be: “Choose to love.” You may find it absurd but yes, choose to love. You never go wrong when you love like Him. Choose to love after all the painful memories of the past. Choose to Continue Reading

Categories Adulting

Move to, HINDI Move on.

Dear You, Tayo’y masaya at nananahimik. Paglipas ng panahon, ako’y sayo’t ika’y akin. Ngunit bakit nawala sa ihip ng hangin? Anong nangyari sa atin? Sabi mo kailangan mo ng pahinga. Sabi mo kailangan mo ng space. Sabi mo kailangan mo ng oras. Sabi mo kailangan mo ng timing. Ngunit bakit Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Makinig ka, pakiusap

Hindi isang imbentong salita hindi rin isang pagpapanggap para makawala sa mundong mapanira, Maniwala ka, Hindi ito isang pagtatago, pag sisinungaling o pag iimbento Dahil ang taong sinasabihan, tinatalikuran at inaayawan nyo ay ang taong Kailangan ng yakap at pang unawa nyo, Maniwala ka hindi ito isang biro. Hindi ito Continue Reading

Categories Confessions

Messenger Tragedy

Naka-offline ka, pero in another call ka… ay kaya pala online din siya… … is in another call.Recording Voicemail.… missed your call. Alam ko na kung bakit,Paulit-ulit,lagi kong pinipilitpero bakit ang sakit? …Kung buhay pa siguro yung tatlong paring martyr baka ako na yung maging ika-apat,pero wala eh… pikit mata Continue Reading

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His Undying Love

I was broken. I was alone. I want to restart. But I can’t do it on my own.   I’m was in sorrow. I’m was in pain. I wanted to end this. And I care less.   There was this day. I decided to die. But you suddenly came. With Continue Reading

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Mahirap maging ako

Mahirap maging ako. Akala nila matalino ako. Akala nila magaling ako. Akala nila malakas ako. Akala nila masaya ako. Hindi ako matalino. Hindi ako magaling. Hindi ako malakas. Hindi ako masaya. Tanga ako. Ginagawa ko lang kung ano yung dapat gawin. Mahina ako. Ako na ang pinakamalungkot na tao sa Continue Reading

Categories Depression

End

I was afraid that I can’t make it. I am tired of faking all of it. I was so happy now and later I feel empty I feel broken from the inside yet I try to make it I am sad, Yes but I try to make sense out of nothing. I wanna cry Continue Reading

Categories Depression

Depression

I was battling my depression. Once in a while I found myself crying in the middle of my sleep. Am I crazy? Or I’m just stressed out? I can’t find myself in the right way. My path is now crooked and I was lost now. I’m crying but no one Continue Reading